The Begining

Pictures taken in Hong Kong

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2nd Hong Kong Trip

2009-06-26T20:18:00.000-07:00

Airene, another late entry.. keke

Travelled to Hong Kong for the 2nd time. It was between the period 30 Apr - 4 May. During this time, it was the beginning of H1N1 season and i was a bit hesistant to proceed with this trip, with the constant hinting from my father to cancel the air ticket plus i have always been a health freak all this while..

Desperately, i wanted to take a flu ject the day before i travelled but too late cause it should have been at least 1 week before hand. Thus alternatively i wanted to take demiflu (if spelt correctly) but the clinic which promised me to sell me that told me that they do not have any stock at the moment. I went on to approach about another 3 clinic, all to tell me that it was sold out. the time when i reached guardian pharmacy, they actually do have but already closed. I remember the last clinic i approached is called Faith Clinic. That plus the very fact that I could not managed to get demi flu and flu ject being too late was an answer from God to my prayer for this trip: Have faith and proceed with the Hong Kong Trip.. kind of like a provision.

God still knew best. Eventually, i was okay.. i got back my consultation fee from doc, save $$ in buying demi flu which cost $60 which later i read from newspaper it is not suitable from me and has side effect. And because of this trip, something good happen after which..

Anyway, I took SIA flight and con-incidently, i realised Kit was also taking the same flight as me.

Took lots of pictures, went lots of places and eat lots of things. Check out the photos for my subsequent blog.. pictures tell more :)

Chalet

2009-06-26T20:02:00.000-07:00

This is another late entry. Despite that, just felt that i need to put this up for my memory.

This is taken at the chalet room just before we check out the place.

Yes, we managed to have a chalet together in March this year. Hong joined us. Busy bird, Hui did not stay but did pop by during one of the day.

What we did:

-Eat

-Sleep

-KTV

-Wild Wild Wet

-Swimming

-Lazing in a pub at the NTUC resort given complimentary

-Chua dai di

Lilies of e Field

2009-05-19T01:01:00.000-07:00

My very good friend Huiling has set up a beautiful blogshop Lilies of e Field. Many nice clothes inside that can be purchase online. However, am too slow.. one of the piece of top i wanted is sold.. Anyway there are many other nice dress and tops. You can view them at this link:

http://loef.wordpress.com

An unusual Day

2009-04-14T04:12:00.000-07:00

One Tuesday I got a pleasant slight surprise in the office when i see dear wore a stripe long sleeve shirt. (though before hand i ponder upon the thought that he really will wear something different...) Got people say he handsome hee :p

We went to East Coast to cycle after work finally!! Though i was very tired.. but thought i really should move my body abit. by the time we reach ECP it was already about 7.20pm andwe both did not have our dinner actually.. so we cyle all the way to bedok jetty and we rest there for a while.. like the place but of coz would be better with lesser people and without the stink of the fish.. there are so many so call 'fisherman' on a weekday nite at the bedok jetty..

After that, we cycle all the way back to the bicyle kiosk.. by then were so hungry.. Thank God that despite initially we were deciding where to go for our dinner out of so many cafe, eateries.. the ultimate decision is City Food!! And it is a right decision after all.. Cheap, good outdoor ambience, polite and ever-ready staff to serve you, and good food.. Look at the photos.. Yummy right! Love the Yakitori rice and the Grilled Chicken rice both..Guess how much it cost? $3.50 only for per set. and if u want ice water or plain water, u can request it and will still see a smiling face of the staff :)

If you ever go to ECP check out City Food. somewhere near the chain of eateries near MacDonald.

Nelly & Aaron Wedding

2009-04-09T02:49:00.000-07:00

Attended dear's cousin , Aaron wedding in novetel hotel with him and his family on 15 March i.e Aaron & Nelly big day.

one of the few that left some deep impression in me:

what i like best:

-food is nice

-self produced mtv-story of the newly-wed (esp since i dunno them that well)

-prayer lead by a pastor in an oriental set up restaurant

other content:

-solo singing accompany by guitar by groom (self composed piece)

-duet by the newly wed (think one off JJ duet)

-thanksgiving speech by the newly wed

-thanksgiving speech by good friends

Feel quite entertained and had actually enjoyed at the wedding dinner. What a blessing! :)

The Lord bless Aaron and Nelly. May they always be one.

Worries - the killer of joy

2009-04-01T22:55:00.000-07:00

Came across an article in wealth magazine. I like the saying of a particular writer something like that:

Worries do not empty the sorrow of today ; Worries empty the joy of today ...

The joy of the Lord by my strength!

Dinner at Merchant Court

2009-03-31T03:01:00.001-07:00

It has been quite sometime since the last we had family dinner. This was the first time Da Baby joined in with us. upon the suggestion of mummy we went to merchant court for dinner.

Thank God for the meal though there was an unpleasant experience earlier on.

Cadence is so cute!!

Kara & Nonya

2009-03-20T02:57:00.000-07:00

Sometime back during the season of CNY, think chu si, met up with ting and pixie and the rest of the gang. we went to the party world in liang court.. unlike the usual party world, the one over there quite nice with lights.. can see the picture.. nice right.. anyway love kara!! & also it has been long since the last i kara.. had always enjoy going kara.. and have miss having kara with the gang.. which normally consist of me, ting, pixie and steph.

After that, as far as i remember, we have some time left before we meet other friends at Peranakan The Nonya Family Restaurant for dinner, thus we walk around liang court and back to steph car going for a car wash.. hee i felt amazed to be in the interior of the car while it bom bom

Peranakan The Nonya Family Restaurant was located in Keppel Club and think this was the 2nd time i been time. (was there for a retreat when i was still in Explomo) Though i forgot most of the names of the dishes we had, but food was nice.. not bad though most nonya dish appearance looks dull. Peranakan also caught my attention to their pledge saying something like they are committed to bring out their best of food for the glory of God. (forgotten the exact sentence.. but something like that) Anyway glory and praise to the Lord. may their business be good and their service and food will always stay on top though the location is a bit out of the way..

After that, i proceed home meeting Da Baby at tiong bahru. Oh yah thanks steph for the lift to there.. and also all for the day! God bless :)

Pre Valentine at Admiral Bar & Grill

2009-03-19T02:49:00.000-07:00

Ah Bu and I finally went to this Admiral Bar & Grill.. we have been wanting to go there.. been very curious how it would be like on the hill side..

it was a very quiet place actually located inside Sembawang Country Club. We were then very curious how the place is being operated as it seems very layback.. and we imagine how it would have been like to work there.. lol.. we then explore the place walk walk here and there.. and saw got guardhouse.. and heard got swimming pool and chalet.

After which we proceed to the Admiral Bar & Grill to make our order.. lots of BBQ there.. if you are not afraid of heaty and love BBQ that is for you. The place was a bit noisy and perhaps hot.. but i did enjoy as to me it was kind of a chilling session from work. And that was a Pre Valentine Day for me.

The waitress kept on pressing Ah Bu to buy flower for me.. and I immediately say dun want.. not that i dun love flower but the amosphere is not right for that and it was very expensive for something you have to buy on the spot and not having to see it.. hee thus i say no to the waitress and waitor a few times when i can see Ah Bu like a bit wanting to buy..

One more nice picture.

2009-03-18T20:41:00.001-07:00

I like this group photo :)

Spiritual Foundation Course

2009-03-17T04:54:00.000-07:00

Me and dear signed up for the Spiritual Foundation Class 1 and it started already on 1 March. so far we have faithfully attended the class 9am to 11am. Praise the Lord. His ever presence always be with us and for stengthening me to wake up early on Sunday..

This Sunday hope me and dear will be there at 9am sharp.. and no more lateness. We will be punctual. Amen.

V Day

2009-03-17T04:29:00.000-07:00

A number of closed ones ask me how did i spend my first Valentine.. somehow or rather think i either forgot to answer them din have a chance to share or for some other reason.. again this is an overdue entries..

Ah Bu and I did meet up on that day on 14 Feb. We went to my cousin place as Ah Bu need to teach him how to use excel as we both decided to celebrate it on sun. (though we both fell sick that day. is'nt it an extraordinary way to spend a Valentine? spending a day with your loved ones during the weakest hour. We are both okay now so far. Thank God and believing him for more.) hope our presence did cheer my cousin up that day..

for some reason, we had a really late valentine dinner.. lol at my house at 10pm..

i cook vegetables and eggs. a very simple meal. beautiful things can be simple.. and perhaps indeed everyday can be a valentine..

Resolutions

2009-03-16T04:45:00.000-07:00

yeah its never too late to post my resolutions for 2009!

1) Good health

2) Save $$

3) Make more $$

4) To go for baptism

5) Buy insurance

6) Learn to speak Cantonese

7) To lost weight

The day I turn 28

2009-03-16T02:38:00.000-07:00

The day I turn 28 - i felt quite numb about that actually nowadays though i am one year older.. perhaps in my heart as long as i still look young, feel young, feel accomplished, feel that i am on the go.. besides, i am young! (anyway one day when i am in heaven, God will give me a young body all over again)

Dinner at Bottled Tree and cheese cake on 3 Mar 2009

Went to Bottled Tree with Da Baby on that day after work. did not specially took an off for the ocassion as i forgotton why.. anyway food was nice and okay. we ordered sweet and sour grouper, kang kong and fish maw soup.. 3 dishes for 2 person is completely enough.

I kind of like the place there.. for the quiteness in the midst of river. having some time in between, we walk around.. and saw some people prawining in a small pond $30 for 3 hours..

time to go back.. we decided to make our exit and headed back to woodlands. Back home, mummy and jessie was home. soon the cheese cake in the fridge that was bought for me came out.. actually i told mum pandan cake is enough but somehow she insisted it was no good.. and eventually bought a plain cheese cake knowing that i m not a creamy cake person..

Actually, mummy jessie and Da baby is a weird combination group to celebrate my birthday with my dad and my brother working at that time. nevertheless i felt contented enough.. just as i knew that mummy and jessie would have been too shy to sing a birthday song to me.. Da baby give me a surprise by singing for me and leading the 2 of them.

Tea Time at Botanic Gardern on 8 March 2009

Pei, hui, hong, fei, man, yin, kenny and dear was there with me.. finally we did manage to go botanic garden having said that a lot of times. look at our food order and u can imagine we should feel quite full.. hee anyway knowing that i dun eat creamy cake, this gang put candle in a sandwich to in replacement.. hee i have seen candle in tart, candle in pizza.. sandwich is the first time i came across..

anway the food in botanic garden is okay.. if u are feeling stress, take a stroll there in the morning and imagine u are a tourist/retiree having a holiday.. the flower fragrance is very strong there..

after that we went to ang mo kio to have our bubble tea.. a simple and pleasurable birthday i had simply for the great company..

Note: thanks to all who celebrate my birthday with me this year.. Dear, Mummy, Jessie, Pei, Hui, Fei, Yin, Hong, Man and Kenny. And also all those who send me those beautiful birthday wishes msg. Also thanks to those who celebrate my birthday with me for the past few years.. beautiful memory stays.. Thank God for creating me :)

It has to begin somewhere

2009-03-16T02:14:00.001-07:00

Oh, when i just visit my own blog i just realised it has been one year since i last update my blog which is about my last birthday.. (dear huiling, not half year but one year le! coz i erased my june entry for some reason. lol) but i really enjoy reading all my close friends' blog without my own input.. wat an enjoyment! hee..

have so many things to write and reflect upon, but too busy too lazy, haha and too many excuses.. i know it has to begin somewhere..

since i ended my last entry in march 2008 regarding my birthday, i will start my next subsequent blog entries for 2009 after this on my birthday and some updates perhaps.

Stay till..

The day when I am 27

2008-03-19T19:59:00.001-07:00

Happy birthday to myself! Father, I thank you that you have always provided wonderful friends for me to be by my side. I am so blessed.

Today I am 27, and help me to face life courageously, without any fears though at time i do feel insecure at the uncertainties of life and about my future. Your are the Way, the Truth, and The Life. You are my hope and strength too! Lord I love you because you first love me. Thank you, thank you & thank you.

Meeting Pei

I took a half day leave and spend the early part of the day with Pei.. who was on so call rest leave. we had a simple and comfortable meal at bishan J8 yoshinoya. always felt so comfortable when meeting old friend.. and after that i proceeded to the journey for work feeling a bit sad yet understanding that pei would not be able to join us for the dinner at Brotzeit, a german restaurant in vivo city facing the beautiful sea.

Work

Work was manageble and funny thing was that my colleagues all thought that i would be on leave.. for the past few years i m never one who take leaves on my birthday so far.

After Work.. Brotzeit German Restaurant

I knock off and proceeded to Vivo. Since I was a bit early, i went to the german restaurant to take a look. and got to meet Fritz a cute ah mo guy who helped me to reserve seat over the phone few days before.

Soon my secondary school kakis all came and we proceeded with our order. out of a sudden, there was someone who blindfold my eye with hands, and u guess who? it was pei! this naughty gal told me that she would not be coming when we meet up in the morning and suddenly appear in front of me, present me flower with a cheeky look.. that was real surprise!

so we proceeded with dinner and as usual i start to take some pictures. we had fun and again dunno why, whenever i talk to weihong (so call Mr Lim) we would end up bickering.. he said that my drink applestrudel (i formed this spelling myself as i forgot the exact spelling) taste and looks like one of a awful drink sold in coffeeshop.. irritating!

after a while, hui came and all of us took some pictures together asking the staff there to help us.. they were very friendly. and i told them about Fritz.. and yin was so naughty and daring.. ask him to take picture with me.. oh i would never dare to do that.. well anyway he was very da fang and took a photo with me and offered to hold my flowers though i say no need.. An interesting encounter and aquaintance once in a life time..

Photo Taking At Beautiful Scenery of Vivo City

Later on, we proceeded to take more pictures and went to eat bean curd at rochor after that. met kelvin there surprisingly..

Then, i took cab with pei home.. and home sweet home and dreamland time.

Thank you once again for celebrating my birthday! you are such a blessings! must mentioned: pei, hui, yinn, man, fei & Mr Lim! I had an enjoyable day.

Malacca Trip

2008-03-18T05:18:00.000-07:00

Finally.. time for blog! Recently, I find that my entries have always been long overdue.. Hee..Anyway here is a recall of my recent Malacca Trip on 1 & 2 March. Please see the link http://blog.cutegorilla.com/?cat=15 for more info and quality pictures.

Was getting excited for the day coz I have long look forward to Malacca by late Feb..even though that was a last minute decision.. You call it a break, or a day of rejenuvation, where i can put down all my emotional baggage from all areas of life.. Yes, that was what I want.. at least at that moment of time, to leave Singapore for a while.. and these two days i would not put on any make up. will be at rest!

Before the trip

Funny thing was that few days before the trip, I am such a big head prawn that I forgot to renew my passport which was due.. Expense of that was a bill of $90 for the renewed passport, temporary passport & passport photos done in a chop chop manner..

Then, the day before the trip I actually forgot to go money changer to change $$.. Worse still, at the same time, i realised i left my mobile in the office. Expense of that was to wake up super early at about 5.30am , a cab fare of about $20 from my place all the way to my eastern zone office and to change $$ at the Malacca Hotel.. which i felt was not exactly a good rate. seems screwed up right.. ironically, i m so meticulous when it comes to work i.e organising events.. will make sure everything run smoothly from A to Z.. but when it comes to myself i forgot to do this forgot to do that.. hee well, am determined to make the trip a nice one, thus shall forgive myself this time for being a big head prawn.

Took some time for the security check.. and by the time we reached Malacca, putting all the things into hotel.. it was already 3pm plus when we were heading for lunch.

Reaching Malacca

So so hungry at that time that i left my camera in the hotel forgot to bring it with me. thus for the rest of the day, i did not take any picture. those u see above some are taken the following day, some are from ting.

Lunch

we went to a place called nancy's kitchen for lunch.. everything was so nice.. the place specialise in nonya food(hee i have 3 rounds of rice..very man right) the pop piah was also very nice. Next we went to another place to have chendol.. which was recommended by the gals.. yummy, it really was.. the ice was soft, portion is comfortable, quality is there.. better than those in singapore where i could not finish all by myself.. but the one in malacca here needless to say!

Shopping & Dinner at Capitol Satay

next we went shopping at the local shopping mall.. though am trying hard to compromise and get myself something but can't find anything i like.. in a way good, save $$. then we went to one of the cha can ting to catch a drink and after that we proceeded to capitol satay for dinner. wow the queue was long there.. despite being very full already actually by that time, we still catch some small stuff over there.. the concept was actually very interesting. capitol satay's concept was like a steamboat.. where instead of normal soup, they replaced it with satay curry sauce.. and heat it up and there we put those thing that we want to eat inside such as crab meat, fishball, meat, vege.. the list goes on..

Night Market Shopping

The meal was then followed by night marketing shopping. i walked for one hour and bought some earrings and cute stuff for my friends and colleagues. for myself, i bought a simple necklance.. feeling very satisfied, i carried this air to look for the gals waiting for me at geographical cafe looking very happy as best as i could remember. (as we gals go separate way while exploring the night market).

Geographical Cafe

Yes i saw the gals.. each of them ordered a drink but still i feel too full to order anything else.

Out of a sudden i saw one of the stuff coming over with a small cake and i thought that was wrong order as she came with it on one hand, and walked away with it on the other hand.. then a while later, i realised it was the doings of the girls.. the cake was from them and perhaps they meant it as a surprise.. u gals are so sweet! well they sang happy birthday to me presenting me that small cake.. and somehow, i am seriously shy when people sing me a birthday song..

Sleeping time

Back in the hotel, washed up and it was sleeping time! the pillow and bed was really comfortable! I share the room with liyee and the other gals in the other room.. before liyee and i enter into our dreamland, we actually have a close at heart gal talk.. i shall not elaborate here.. hee

(anyway liyee hope yr leg is better that time after a few days.. be more careful when u walk next time)

Going back

the next day, we went for breakfast in the hotel with the voucher,eat po piah again, they did some shopping, and i went for massage.. oh ya we went to eat dessert again.. this time they tried chendol (u can imagine how good it is) and i decided to take ice kachang just for a try.. even though ultimately i think chendol is nicer.

then we board the bus as it was time to go back. had a&w for lunch and spend a large portion of time on the bus sleeping, dreaming, in a daze, settling my thoughts while listening to MP3.

A big thanks to you wonderful gals who sponsor me this Malacca Trip, covering the transport and hotel stay, celebrating my birthday with me! I must mention your names here : ting, kelly, steph, huijiao & liyee. This is a special memory. I enjoyed this trip!

CNY Photos

2008-02-13T19:19:00.001-08:00

Happy & Blessed Valentine Day

2008-02-13T06:49:00.000-08:00

Here I wish all my Friends a Happy & Blessed Valentine Day & Friendship Day! Enjoy yourself ok whether you have dates or alone , whether u at home, outside , or overseas..! God Loves U.

I will be happily working till 8pm. Got afternoon DM.
The Lord will be my Valentine!

Work , Running, Lao Yu Sheng & Dinner with my family

2008-02-13T06:33:00.000-08:00

For the past 3 days, I have been knocking off on time and managed to take the 6.15pm bus. enjoyed the MRT journey, enjoyed reaching home at about 7.30pm.

Once reached home, i washed my face immediately and got changed to get ready for running. before i stepped out of the house, my mum n dad was back with cadence. (sis was here also) together we lao yu sheng as today being ren ri. i took a few bites and run for about half an hour! Then it was dinner time! (by that time my brother was back)

Chinese New Year

2008-02-13T06:08:00.000-08:00

Finally got time to record what I have done for CNY:

6 Feb (wed) : Work ; Reunion Dinner
7 Feb (thur) : People coming to my house ; Zzzz @ home ; visit Pei's house ;
Watching CJ7
8 Feb (fri) : Visit Aunti Ying & Aunti Lan house ; Zzzz @ home ; Drinks with
friends ; Accompany mum back home from Bugis
9 Feb (sat) : Aunti Ying visit my house ; Zzzz @ home ; visit yin's house ; supper
10 Feb (sun) : Church service ; Visit to Victor's cell group ; Zzzz at home ; Family
dinner at Ang Mo Kio Hub Soup Restaurant

Think I am done with CNY for the year! How about you? Blessed New Year!
(Photos will be uploaded tomorrow as think my computer at home is slow)

Boss saw me on TV.. (any hole for me to hide..?)

2008-02-13T05:55:00.001-08:00

Well, no one mention seeing me on S pop in work except one of my boss.. phew not too bad lah..
Anyway below are one of the conversation i had with boss which i tot quite funny.

Boss: hey u went s pop huh.. i saw u holding banner.
Me: erm u got watch s pop?
Boss: Ya ya i saw u..
Me: (I smile) aiyah at first want to sit at the back just listen to her songs in comfort zone..but they ask me to sit in front and hold the banner.. then ok lor
Boss: that's y.. i told my wife i saw a staff and she say no lah maybe u see wrong person
Me: Ya maybe you see wrongly.. it is not me :p
Boss: No no.. it is u.. so many times u on screen. Kit Chan good lah..

After the long break..

2008-02-11T05:52:00.000-08:00

I screwed up again today, the first day of the week. Spent $28.35 on cab fare and was still late for work 20 min. Worse still today am AM DM (breaking resolution again. i need to wake up!) I felt so angry with myself. Cannot! Must changed! I can do anything through Christ Jesus who will strengthened me! Amen!

somehow was feeling a bit blue from all the post CNY happenings.. managed to get certain work done but felt lazy. will do better tomoro.

the whole day was bored.. till i get the first amazement of the day. realised that Ch read my blog. felt so because i have never given my blog add to any colleagues before .. yes never.. even when i started this blog in 2006 that time and how on earth did Ch found my blog add was i thinking .. (except for Irene) anyway welcome Ch. Just hope that my blog did not bored you to death. (Trust that you will keep all that was written here confidential k)

managed to catch S pop on tv at home today after work. went to watch it 'live' that time abt 2 weeks back so am wondering how would it look like on TV.. oh..felt so embarassed.. originally, that day, my intention was just to go and support K and enjoy her music comfortly and in a low profile manner.. then was requested to hold banner and sit in front.. i thought maybe the TV cast won't captured us that much so i thought maybe just be spontaneous lor. sign.. was wrong! there were so many shots of me.. really hope none of my colleagues will watch s pop or rather they will not recognised me on tv. am i getting shy as age coming up..? anyway.. it is over! hee.

P.S. Updates on CNY tomoro.. as photos will only be ready by then.

My first blog for the Year

2008-02-08T02:21:00.000-08:00

Today is the 2nd day of lunar chinese new year. Time to update this blog, a really overdue one. Here, I want to thank all who took the time to read my blog.

Now we are already in the 2nd month of 2008! And i know i did not give a conclusion of how I ended my 2007 here. Since 2007 was the past, I would not dwell too much on it but perhaps some of the good memories that I have and some of the things I wanna pen down for myself:

K:
Thanks for the the treat of the drink that night in Oct'07. It was a special experience and will be in my heart. I know that it is not easy, perhaps even surreal and unbelievable. But wanna say here that I am contented enough. And am really happy to know that you are happy, living the live that you had wanted. I had always respect you for yours guts and for touching a part of my life. No matter what you are doing, God bless you. I plan to write you a letter soon.

V:
So great to see you in oct & dec '07. I miss you as always. Many thanks. For the star award tickets, for appreciating us, for being nice, for understanding us from our perspective. You are a classic example of what a truly beautiful woman means. I too am so happy that you are also living a live that you are happy about. Continue to touch lives the way you do now and God's strength be with you. I plan to write you a letter soon. Know and understand that you would not be coming to spore that often now.

Year End Party:
Thank you Lord for the event which started out as a stress to a platform leading me closer to my colleagues. And thanks for bringing Ting & Kelly to help me out as photographers. (Thanks to the gals too. I really appreciate it! You gals are great!)

Beloved family & friends & brothers & sisters:
I might not have a chance to say thanks to you each and every day. but here a big 'thanks!' to all beloved who have spent time with me, listen to me, pray for me, do something for me, or thought of me. I think of u all fondly and I pray that the Lord's blessing will be with u.

Presently on 8 Feb:
Wishing all a good health, gong xi fa cai! fa cai ah! and Happy Chinese New Year. In the meanwhile, don't forget your resolution that u set in the beginning of this year as we moved on from feb to mar. (I already broke some of mine. please encourage me when you see me k) God loves and bless you. Take care.

They don't know, but Lord You know.. That's enough

2007-10-28T01:40:00.000-07:00

This is a long overdue blog entry which was suppose to be put on earlier ..

One month back, I was busily planning and doing my event.. as there would be 3 events coming up on a single weekend.. I felt overwhelmed to be honest.. tired physically and mentally.. and most of all, I felt lonely with the heavy burden of work with 3 to 4 weeks of weekend all burnt out and having to take medicine everyday.. i miss my family, friends, my personal space, my hobbies.. and my social life tremendously..

That night, I stayed in the office till 10plus alone.. suddenly i became self-pity, thinking that i am so alone.. no one would ever know my struggles.. and really wanted badly to broke down as I felt at least it makes me feel better.. however, i knew i need to rush my work and keep up in good spirit.. no time for me to be a cry baby despite being a gan jong spider at heart worrying that my work can't be finished in due time.

It was that very night, that I felt a special touch from the Lord. Maybe nobody knows my struggles, He knows.. and that is enough. I felt light throughout my bus journey home that day, knowing he is with me, in me and for me..

Few weeks later, I went for the Holy Ghost meeting.. In the midst of that, I broke down in good tears remembering all that the Lord has done for me. Once again, 'He Knows', this word came into my mind and that really set me free despite having to climb mountains in every stage of my life.. Subsequently, coming to the end of the Holy Ghost Meeting, Pastor Henry revealed to the congregation that 'He Knows' what we are going through.. To me, that was really wow! It is so good that 'He Knows' even though everyone seem not to know..

Thus, cheer up! God knows what you are going through.. Because he is God! And He is a good one :)

The Lord is good!

2007-10-28T01:32:00.000-07:00

Coming to t0 month end, was actually very poor, trying to make ends meet esp with the countless taxi trip that i took for work and health .. Nevertheless, my Father in Heaven is rich! Somehow or rather, I suddenly found extra $4 which I forgotten i saved few months back, and extra $30 in my bank account which I thought don't have.. At the same time, I got breakfast treat and lunch treat for the weekends.. hee. These solved my problems. At least the $$ at present I havecan last till my coming pay check and yeah, i don't need to borrow!

Lord, thanks!

Thank you Lord and all my loveds ones

2007-10-25T04:26:00.000-07:00

As I look at my previous entry, it was early July.. Around 3 to 4 months since the last i came here. I have so much to share..

People always say times flies fast.. Agreed. At the same time, I also agreed that things take place fast.

A recap in the previous 4 months (July / Aug / Sept / Oct) (the happenings are in order)

My Struggles

-Cannot exercise

- Asthma and cough and fever

-Submit resignation and no income

-Pay $1000 for breaking contract

-Signing Letter of Acceptance from a job offer

-Diagnosed with a sickness

-Having to pay medical check up fee

-Lost the job offer

-Give Kit performance at NDP a miss simply I am too down

-Hopeless, and wanted to give the Lord and myself up totally first time in my life

-Having to take medicine everyday for 6 months

-Having to prove to my boss my capability when I feel sick from the side effects of medicine

-Having to learn new work system

-Having to build rapport with new colleagues

My breakthrough

-Can swim, can run, can play

-No asthma and cough

-Managed to resign and overcome poverty

-No more frequent fever

-Got the job offer

-Medical check up test was subsidized

-Catch Kit performance on repeated program

-I managed to pull myself up with all the encouragements and loves from my loved ones

-Having been consistent and obedient, medicine taking was reduced to 3 times a week and I am left with only about 3 more months, and will not need to take them anymore! Yeah!

- There are not much side effects from medicine now and have received good feedbacks from boss so far

-Get to know some colleagues better

-Had learned a lot of new things in work and will continue to learn.

Father,

I want to commit this blog to you. No words could ever express my gratitute to you, who stood by me and never gives me up, even when times when I said things that are so unholy, and without faith. Even at times, when I actually doubt you.

I knew very well in my heart that I could not survive without your strength and your loves. You let me know what is loves. And thank you for blessing me with my dear mum, dad, brother and sister, and all my dear brothers, sisters in Christ, and my beloved friends.

You are a good God that loves and bless. Thank you Father.

One thing at a time .. First thing first

2007-07-04T03:01:00.000-07:00

Few days back, as I went to see Dr Jean regarding why do I have such prolonged cough and that I can even cough out the phlem with blood .. she checkout by her hearing equipment and told me that there are wheezing sound and it comes from two lungs and that my asthma is still not clear.

The moment she said this i felt saddened by the fact that I have to put my jogging/ running practice for the coming shape up distance running on hold. I playfully ask her 'can i exercise this week? I sign up distance running already.' She replied 'No. these are the kind of people who like to do too many things at one time.. and something happen. you should read the newspaper'. Her remarks reminds me of another doctor (whom i seen one week before her at the same clinic) who urged me to sit down and take things at one time.

After which, on that day, 2 July 2007, I came to ask myself why do i want to do so many things at one time.. why do i often felt that if i do one thing less it seems like did not fully occupy the time productively.. why am i so greedy.. what am i trying to prove.. Still young?able to exercise, able to cope with all happenings efficiently.. ? am a capable girl? was thinking very hard.. on the surface i always emphasied on health, yet i compromised it with my stubborness (never want to lose out attitude), anger, lack of sleep, a attitude that get work out easily when i do not get what i want. In the end, my health suffers.. wat an irony..

was on mc last fri 29 june and mon 2 july. while doing my quiet time on 2 july afternoon, i somehow just felt that God is reminding me 'One thing at a time' and let 'First thing be first' ... somehow.. and i feel a let go after which..

after straightening my thoughts about my perspective on job searching and my current job as ccpe, (and also about forgiveness and understanding and patience) which is the root of many of my frustrations and impatience.. i decided i really really need to take my health, my body which is the holy temple of God seriously.. I thought all along i am serious when i am not 100%.. the fact that my asthma comes back really tells..and how i run and swim when i have weezing sound also tells.. somehow i felt relieved and at peace at deciding that the main focus should be my health status.. miraculously when i have that state of mind, i received the job offer .. and honestly i received it with a balance joy.. not an overwhelming joy.. but i think it should be that way..

the truth : '' There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven''

(Ecclesiastes 3:1)

'Lord, thank you so much for the comfort. am still learning. Its so great to rest in you. To know that even the world turns upside down you stand and rock..!! help me always to have this focus and peace in you.. even in my new working environment and in the coming challenges.. let me not be distracted.. Give me the strength to relax, to be balanced, to let go, to forgive and to move forward. and also overcome!! thank you daddy in heaven.'

One thing at a time with the help of Lord Jesus Christ :

1) Health - get healing for asthma and cough, do x-ray.. 8 hr sleep per day, regular check up with doc,

2) Exit interview-

i) speak to kenny (done)

ii) speak to jerome (done)

iii) speak to victor (not yet)

iv) speak to principal (not yet)

v) speak to vp (done)

3) complete all work on hands (not yet)

4) Good handover to ccpe (not yet)

5) Persuade explomo to provide school ccpe asap (not yet)

6) Employment check up (done)

7) buy thumbdrive (not yet)

8) save up all personal items in thumbdrive for my current labtop (not yet)

9) clear belongings at work station in school (slowly day by day)

10) mission (go with the flow)

11) training for shape run (on hold)

12) volunteering (when i have the time)

13) aaron kwok concert (might go might not go)

14) To improve Nana's grade for maths and english

"Rejoice in the Lord always, I will say it again : Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Phillipians 4:4-7

Amen!!

Her colour reminds me of Jenny

2007-06-15T00:22:00.000-07:00

saw this cat early this morning.. she is always loitering around in the school.. if ever she is a human being, she definitely gonna be chased away..

anyway she is scared of me :p
well her colour reminds me of jenny..

CCPE anniversary

2007-06-14T23:53:00.000-07:00

This is another day another break from the school..good for me..

the event started at around 1pm ++ on a hot day.. we were suppose to eat our lunch before hand..

initially most of the ccpe just laze or chit chat (or shall we say network?) around and took some time to settle down..

some went kayak some went to play floor games and some played interphrase game.. guess what did i play? hee..

actually syf yacht club is quite a
soothing place esp when u feel the
wind blowing at you..

i even withness something beautiful that has six colors.. captured it with my nikon coolpix .. noticed? its in some of the pix..

generally i enjoyed the celebration just that there are some unpleasant experience after dinner time..

anyway dinner was nice as everyone were hungry.. and i think i m tanner than b4 after this trip..

took quite a lot of pix.. coz i quite like the place.. though it ulu..

Self Created Holiday

2007-06-12T02:07:00.000-07:00

Finally finally got a chance to blog here after a seemingly long break from the last i came here to really update

well so many to write and so many thoughts to be organised.. alright i shall start from first day of the long stretched leave:

30 June 2007 Wednesday

Swimming
Start the day with a yawn and looking forward to the deep cool water of the pool.. Am supposed to meet my sis at toa payoh at about 9am. remember vividly that as the train proceeds to ang mo kio the sun was still shining and by the time, it reached toa payoh there were drizzling of rain. Thus we went for breakfast at the underground canteen in toa payoh bus interchange. it has been long since the last i have breakfast with my sis. somehow i felt it was heart warming perhaps both of us are in the holiday mood. despite the rain, we r determined not to let it affect our swimming plan.. Oh by the time we walk to the pool it was already 10pm ++. The water was cool and from small droplets of rain to the coming back of the sun, we were there. i guess everyone who had known me and my sis would agreed that this would be a breakthrough for both of us. it was a good swimming session and we had enjoyed although we were horrified to see the contrust of skin color during our shower.. hee

Whompoa Market - Mee Siam (by chinese couple)
We walk out of toa payoh swimming pool feeling very much refreshed.. After which, we proceeded to take bus 145 from interchange to whompoa market for our lunch. we are there specially for the mee siam and to visit my aunt who was working there as an assistant.. i have like the mee siam there since my days of working for hwa and the couple there who sell the mee siam has known me.. the world is so small that my aunt also came know them. which i only came to know few days back. hee this time the lao pan niang gave us a treat.. i also order fruits.. yummy.. left the place yummy with a full stomach..

Entrepuneur Talk@ park mall
The journey of the day continues.. we took a straight bus 124 to park mall from whompoa to park mall for a free entrepuneur seminar talk by Chris and Dennis Wee the famous one from ERA. When we reached the building me and my sis are somewat embarassed by our dressing (as u can imagine how casual it will be since we went swimming in the morning) everyone looked professional or at least smart and formal..

actually by that time we were both very tired and sleepy being afternoon, hot weather, full stomach , walking from toa payoh to whompoa and whampoa to park mall.. we were tempted to doze off.. thank God the speaker were not so boring.. one is charismatic one is funny .. lol i leave u to think who is who for the 2 description.. anyway at the end of the seminar we were invited to sign up for a 3 days entrepuener workshop camp which my sis n i did not take up.. so so expensive.. well anyway it was a nice experience.. to see people from other walks of life.. the youngs and the seasoned one.. after the talk we did not even join in at the reception for some reason.. perhaps we felt pai seh that we did not talk up the 3 days workshop camp..

California at somerset outlet
next we proceeded to take train from douby ghaut to somerset to meet yin who is a california member. it was planned that we will take pass from her and we shall all go in there for workout for classes for sauna for steambath watever watever.. however, there was this consultant who declined my entry coz he had seen me before.. he meant that even a platimum member could not bring a guest who has been there before.. anyway i do not like the 'four person talk ' that was getting no where.. thus i say its ok.. i will not go in today.. and thus my sis also did not go in.. but he went on to ask my sis to stay since my sis is new.. lol so funny my sis did not go.. it was a wasted trip..

Wang Jiao Cafe
Well, after that, we were actually at a loss of what to do next.. being very tired, we just decided to sit down and have a drink and relax.. thus i bought her to wang jiao cafe at cineleisure.. that was her first time time and we were all terribly cold at that time.. though the service from the crews were not fantastic or shall i say bad.. we enjoyed the toasted bread and the sandwhich.. of coz i love the HK milk tea there..

Shopping@hereen

We proceeded to hereen see see look look walk walk.. there were some nice sandals and flip flop which my sis was looking around for it.. there was one which cost $9.9o which i did not buy at that instance but eventually.. also did went to rose in the attic .. there were sales.. i bought a cardigen and a singlet from shell.. did talk a bit with her.. well then i happened to know that kit happened to be there earlier on in the afternoon.. well well..

Proceeding to Ang Mo Kio

Our feets were complaining and asking us to take a break and go home. Thus sis and i proceeded to ang mo kio.. her home and i went to meet xiaopei there.. we had mosburger as dinner.. resting and chating all the way till 10 plus and i reach home at 11plus..

31 June 2007 Thur

First Thing in the morning

Slept to the fullest till 9am plus.. no rush.. no struggle to wake up.. felt so peaceful in the midst of silence in my house.. as everyone was working on vesak day.. i had the whole space myself..

First date of the day

I took a straight bus to compassvale point to meet Jane.. delighted to see her after so long and she is still so independent and abled.. when u see her u will be impressed and inspired and i pray that God will bless her in every way and continue to strengthen her.. we are sort of in the same boat.. looking for jobs.. and we are the hands on people who are not into admin..a verdic given by our same superior.. Jane don't give up!!

East Coast Park

Next i took a bus from seng kang to bedok bus interchange.. And i realised that there is a shuttle bus from bedok that goes directly to ECP instead of walking a long distance using underpass.. so happy am i to know that.. Unfortunately being the first time taking the bus and reluntant to ask the driver where is the bus stop to alight (maybe i m too tired..), i suffer the consequence of alighting one bus stop earlier and having to walk a distance of 40 min walking past the river where all the seasport activitites were there.. to the kingfisher man village , all the way to mac where the bicycle kiosk were.. and from the status of early bird, i became a later commer for the day.. oh its a lesson learn.. ling told me that i should alight at one more bus stop which is directly infront of mac the meeting place.. in the end,finally finally i met ling and her friends.. quite nice people :)

anyway the first activity was cycling.. its actually quite cheap.. $5 for 2 hr (1 hr being free as part of promotion) + a bottle of mineral water upon returning the bicycle..

along the way i have took some pictures.. like the sky at that time very much .. blue combined with red plus the beach n trees.. somehow i actually like bedok jetty .. was thinking of going there for fishing someday in weekday when the crowds are not there... yah and i met toh soon there a hwa member.. hee i actually remember her.. we promised to say hi to each other if ever we see each other on streets again..

Dinner time..

went to a very famous bedok hawker for dinner as the food centre at ecp is packed.. lol this hawker was also very packed actually but fortunately we managed to get a seat.. i realised that most of the food stalls either appeared on newsaper, ch U mei shi wang, or got this or that award before.. and i was spoiled for choices.. everything seems nice.. in the end i ordered satay chicken wing and stingray (which eventually i cancelled my cancel coz i waited for too long).. and most stalls told me that i have to wait 30 min.. coz business was good and thus gotta wait.

Home Sweet Home

by the time dinner was completed it was abt 9 tp 10 plus.. ling's friend drove me to bedok mrt and i took 168 back to woodlands interchange via expressway thank God. after which i took one stop train bk to admiralty n home!! it was 11plus by then..

1 June 2007 Friday

tired trip @ ang mo kio

wake up at about 8plus and had not really recovered from the fatigue the day before.. leg was so tired and i wish i could sleep some more.. yet i dun want to miss out the programmes planned ahead..

both me and my sis drag ourselves up. preparation was fast but unfortunately we forgot to bring certain things neccessary for a gym workout.. thus on top of the something my sis need to settle at amk, we went to shop for the things we need for gym workout.. ask me personally if u want to know what we forgot to bring.. too embarassed.. and angry at self at the thought of it..

by the time we leave amk, its abt 11am and when we reached city hall, we actually took the shuttle bus to suntec being too too tired..

Our first use of Planet Fitness

met tommy the sales consultant and we get our 7 days trial pass from him.. and u know wat we did after which.. Bath and steambath!!! that's all for the day.. i think very obvious, tommy must have know that we 2 are very very tired..

Lunch

next we went to a jap restaurant in suntec at the basement for our lunch..a set meal with free flow of drinks or cappochino.. finally we get to sit down, relax with a meal, with a drink in the air-con with a small crowd in a quiet atmosphere..

Journey to Outram

after lunching, we lazily get ourselves up and proceeded to outram.. were amazed and somewat irritated at the crowd in a week day afternoon.. as we have to walk from suntec to city hall.. esp using the bridge from suntec to citylink.. we were thinking how come these people no need to work ..or maybe we are not the only smart ones who knows how to make use of PH and apply leave to make it a long stretch..

KTV

finally we reached outram.. first, we aimed at party world for a drink and kara at the lounge instead of room.. (we felt it should be a refreshing experience.. as i told my sis that a holiday would look like one if only we do the things we normally don't do..) however it cost abt $20++ per person and we were actually quite relunctant.. then we tot abt 10 dollar club.. but their lounge singing start only start from 6pm to 8pm.. which mean we have to crack our head for the time in between..

So guess wat? we went to singapore football club assn (one level below party world @ oriental plaza) and book a room for 3 hr and sing..abt $13 per pax better still.. the songs are quite updated..not too ulu ulu..

actually we watch mtv and concerts mostly more than singing as we are too tired.. but it was enjoyable.. and relaxed..

AKIRA warehouse sales

after kara we proceeded to jurong east and took a cab to akira warehouse to meet our mum n brother.. phew ..did buy quite a no. of things for the household..

Dinner @ home sweet home

by the time we reached home it abt 10plus.. and we had our dinner there n then - self cooked spaghatti by my sis..

2 June 2007 saturday

Tea Chapter

forgot exactly when was the last time i went to tea chapter.. thus i kind of miss the place..

went there with pei fei and fei.. we played board games dumb and scrabble there.. oh it was so comfortable.. and i recovered from my fatigue a bit

Dinner @ chinatown.
Simple and humble yet expensive meal in one of the coffeeshop.. $10 dinner..

See see look look at clarke quay
we went to central the new mall.. i felt it quite squeezy but still have some nice cloths.. after which we just sat down by the river and see people do the bumpy jump.. we all agreed that we would not spend $30 on that.. (and for me I won't spend $30 to instill fear .. thought most would consider that excitement..)

then home sweet home!!

3 June 2007 Sunday

-slack at home.

-watch tv

-attend church service

-get ready for the coming week

-zzzzz

4 June - 5 June Mon & tue
-Taking npcc students to leadership training at home team academy.. hee thus not in school

7-8 June Thur & Fri
-On course.. on communication skills.. quite an experience!!

hee thus i only in school on wed!!

n the week went fast..

9 June 2007 Sun
soon came sat the gathering for relatives.. enjoyed the meal and enjoyed seeing all my uncles and auntis and cousins and old photos.. celebrates dad's birthday too!!

Is it raining , sun set or sun rise?

2007-05-28T02:43:00.000-07:00

Is it raining, sun set or sun rise?

What do you think?

Get well!!Run! I will strong!!

2007-04-13T02:45:00.000-07:00

Right now, got asthma, sore throat, stomach bloatedness, cough, ulcer..

but i will get well and run in Jesus name!!

No sickness will come near me!!

I will get my work done!! i will have joy!! i will!! in Jesus name!!

The Swimming Instructor

2007-04-13T02:32:00.000-07:00

Received a call from Weihong, hee 'the swimming instructor'.. at about 5plus on one of the weekday in march.. forget when.

he got complimentary tickets for his virgin production 'the swimming instructor'.. he called on that day i happened to be able to make it on that day together with fei fei and her sister..

we 3 met in bugis for dinner and proceeded to the 42 waterloo st.. such a ulu and hard to find place..

anyway i m entertained by the show.. although would not dare to say its fantastically a nice piece of theatre work.. as some part i found beat about the bush..

had known weihong since thomson sec days.. this is the first time i saw him in public venue performing.. somehow feel a bit happy for him..

Great to have met fei fei on that day too.. happy :)

31 Mar 2007

2007-04-13T02:21:00.000-07:00

31 Mar 2007 marked Cadence 1 Year old!! no longer baby but toddler..

i went back to school on that day..a sat.. to oversee the indian dance rehearsal for the syf.. modern dance rehearsal was also on that day.. they shared the hall.. i felt great coz everyone were together that kind of feeling.. teachers students and instructors

suddenly one of the modern dance student collapse in breathlessness during the practice..

after which we crowd around her.. and i thought so fast to have a chance to call 995 a day after i got certified for first aid..(as she do not have inhaler on hand and no asthma) after which it seems like news spread fast from security , to HOD, to operational manager..to guardian and of course principal.. i did a mistake ..i should have insist that the gal to be in sit up position instead of lying down in comfort position where the breathe was short..

anyway becoz of what happened, i was a bit late for cadence birthday celebration(at alison hotel high tea) despite taking cab.. thus was a bit rush when i reached there.. swiftly take food and gotta take picture for cadence as promised to my sis..

First Aid

2007-04-13T02:13:00.000-07:00

Got my first aid cert after the two days first aid course on 29 Mar!! I realised the more i learn the more i felt i dunno a lot of things..

first aid is an essential skill that needs refreshing again and again from time to time.. i found it esp useful in the following scenario :

1) Faint / collaspe

2) Choking

3) Breathelessness

4) Serious injury

Thus would like to encourage everyone to take up first aid learning.. you never know when u need..

hee anyway the trainer for the two days is cute :p

The One on Good Friday

2007-04-13T02:00:00.000-07:00

The work of Jesus symbolised the very essence of work..
Met you on this very special day..
Sometimes I thought I know you,
Sometimes I don't..
Who are you?
I want to believe you
but I felt I can't believe
Or should I take a step further..

I like the way you pray for me in writing..
I like the way you bring the plain water at my sight..
I like the way you listen to me..
I don't like your accent..
But its ok i guess..
Oh but i felt insecure somehow somewhat..
are you the wolf in sheep clothing,
or lamb hidden in a wolf exterior..

Time will help..
Jesus you will help..

Dinner@sakura Supper@ kopitiam 25 Mar 07

2007-03-27T18:46:00.000-07:00

Reaching Northpoint at about 7.10pm, I proceeded to burger king to meet pei, hui, yin, man,fei ... they were all there already except the guys. after me, came kaizhong.

we then proceeded to sakura for our yummy dinner.. deciding to go ahead with it without weihong who took bus from hougang to ang mo kio which would pass by chom chom , and from there take bus from ang mo kio to yishun.. lol i wonder is he going to take 169..

anyway in case for those who have not heard of sakura, it is a chinese thai restaurant (diff from the jap restaurant and the buffet restaurant) situated in far east plaza and north point (Yishun). Find that the price is reasonable and there are a variety of choice.. for one person or group.. but usually you have to book a table before hand.

the aboves are some of what we had. (had taken a pix with yin..and we look like qin lui zhuang all in black.. the rest dun want to take with me. 'sob sob'..) anyway the first one is salad you tiao.. ok lor.. not too bad still quite fresh when i eat. dun have lou feng feeling just that the mayo is fattening :p the next one is mai pian xia.. the mai pian is nice to what i feel.. but the prawn is small.. perhaps a bigger and juicier prawns and preferably using tiger prawn hee ... ? next is the sweet and sour chicken.. the sauce is sweet.. and somehow i suspect they all prefer other food then the sweet and sour chicken.. coz i notice that there are still quite a leftover portion.. lol anyway kaizhong manage to finish!!

weihong came after our dinner.. thus we accompany him to kopitam for his dinner and for our supper..

weihong : fish and chip (western food), fish ball, cha siu su, fishbalsl, sausage, hot milo

man: ice milo

fei: hot milo

pei: kopi

yin: lime juice

hui: green tea

me: holick si

we finish our drink way before weihong.. as you can see from our order.. sometimes i m impressed that he can eat so slow and so neat and not be wasteful abt any food..despite our teasing at him.. as normally when i see a guy eat so slow it is normally he has no appetite.. anyway we spent about 1 hour 30 min at kopitiam and its already abt 11 at that time if not wrong. i was actually feeling sleepy and switch off and feeling hot!! lol anyway we proceeded home around that time..

its so great to see a big group of us..hanging out.. its not an everytime everyone is free..

meet up again k..

Blessed week!!

Eddy's Wedding

2007-03-27T13:21:00.000-07:00

It was on 18 March.. and after the gathering@ pines i proceed to go to hyatt with some shopping in between at Far East Plaza. I thank God that pine is near orchard thus i have all the luxury of time to change and take my time to go to Hyatt the place where the wedding was held.

Eddy was smart in suit.. after congratulate him, i proceeded to went into the function room. So happy for him. this guy finally settled down.

I was the first to arrived in the allocated table. After which, Ina and Glen my new or renew aquaintence ( most likely we have met each other in productions for Glass theatre few years back though did not have chance to talk) came. I exchange no. with Ina.. find her comfortable to talk to and we have common interest i.e theatre and the local arts scene.

Shortly after huiling and shawn came.. so glad for their presence esp in a table of so many new faces. Huiling is my pri school friend and shawn is her husband..

anyway the wedding was fun and unique.. the theme for it was 'shanghai night' and everyone did dress for oscasion.. and like a D&D, there is live band, best dresser award, best couple dressing award, and lucky draws..

Kelvin 2

2007-03-26T23:11:00.000-07:00

Kelvin , see you in heaven!!
Lord I pray that you will watch over Kelvin's family that they will experience your peace. And that all will go well with them..

I will remember you and how you fight the good race.

Baby Cadence

2007-03-26T22:45:00.000-07:00

She is so cute and innocent.. my niece cadence. like to look at her on a stressful day kinda of cheer me up.. my future baby will be very cute too..

Gathering@pines

2007-03-26T19:07:00.000-07:00

Just a recap on the KCC gathering.. an afternoon at The Pines.. Glad to see old and news faces athough I did not speak to all..
i felt that the gathering was casual simple yet comfortable..
At the very first glance of Kit, I was reminded of her 1st album that kind of image.. i draw some similarities.. but of course the latest kit is an upgraded version.. Anyway congrates Kit that she has got a 1st class honour degree in popular music..! Happy for her and hope that she will find fufilment in all that she does..
Hopefully this gathering with a close up and update conversation with Kit and one another will be a beautiful memories to all who came that day.
God bless everyone :)

Gathering@Pines

2007-03-26T18:39:00.000-07:00

Just a recap on the KCC gathering.. an afternoon at The Pines.. Glad to see old and news faces athough I did not speak to all..

i felt that the gathering was casual simple yet comfortable..

At the very first glance of Kit, I was reminded of her 1st album that kind of image.. i draw some similarities.. but of course the latest kit is an upgraded version.. Anyway congrates Kit that she has got a 1st class honour degree in popular music..! Happy for her and hope that she will find fufilment in all that she does..

Hopefully this gathering with a close up and update conversation with Kit and one another will be a beautiful memories to all who came that day.

God bless everyone :)

My first post for the year 2007

2007-03-26T03:52:00.000-07:00

Have changed my template finally!! Has kept on procastinate.. Yo, i like the color.. !!

New layout with a new photos for 2007!!

*Taken with my new toy of the year 'Nikon Coolpix L11' !!

Recap, Reflect, Resolute 2006 / 2007

2006-12-29T18:29:00.000-08:00

Recap

1) Went to HK in May, Batam in mar and in nov
2) I got a baby niece (sister's daughter), 1 baby cousin, 1 nephew (cousin's son)
2) Finally see Vivian after 9 years and to be able to watch her sing 'live'. 2 letters from her
3) Mum and Aunti Kim and Aunti Yin came to church with me. Said sinner's prayer. Salvation
is near!
4) Nana's grade for English, Maths and Chinese improved.
5)Made new friends from Republic Poly, Explomo, Friend's friend, and through the interest of vivian chow.

Reflect

Times are really flying like aeroplane.. was actually sick from the period of 15- 19 nov.. cough, sore thoat,flu,gastric flu,fever, vomit, diarreoa and i actually fainted in the toilet in the middle of the night.. i felt this is an area which i am careless despite my effort to be careful about health.. the 4 days in bed shall serve as a reminder that not to take my health for granted..

same to all my beloved ones out there..please take care of yourself.. Perhaps same..you would like to ask yourself whether :

1)have u drink enough water?
2) have you got enought sleep? and quality one?
3) did u exercise?
4) did u detox your body on regular basis?
5) do u have a good diet with the neccessary nutrients?
6) are you stress?
7) are you happy?
8) do you love yourself?

Resolute

1) Can't share here..
2) Can't share here..
3) Good health. fit and trim too.
4) Save up. clear debts
5) be a good worker
6) be true
7) complexion to improved more and more
8) overcome the phobia of swimming

Coming to the end of 2006, and a welcome of 2007, i wish that all my friends and loved ones will be blessed, health and joy be theirs in Jesus name.

Father Lord, thank you for everything. and for your love. thanks thanks thanks.. I loves you :)

My 2nd day in school / Tact Party

2006-12-29T17:31:00.000-08:00

Today is the 2nd last day of 2006..and now is 9.33am in the morning..my friends were all sleeping i guess ..

Party:
came back from company party last night.. Thank God i still managed to squeeze some clothes out for the event with the theme of 'black, white or glitter'.. (the day before i was troubled by what to wear with the relunctance of buying new clothes for it.. :p) Finally my leg can rest from all the heels and sharp pointed covered shoe which limits oxygen to my toes.. :p
3 blisters at least..

so glad to see my fellow ccpe friends and manager at the party after knocking off .. I realised that i miss some of them in the HQ as i have officially reported to school. miss lunching with them, miss the milo and snacks made or bought from some of them, miss playing cash flow game, miss slacking together in the office with them, miss the training program assignment given by my manager..

Everyone looks good yesterday and was in high spirit.. and i realised more about what kind of party goer am i .. am the sort who went in to a party will chat with everyone in general, before putting my bag down..after which i will place my belonging in a corner to settle in the environment.. after which, will look for closer friends among the groups for a good catch up and update..then in the midst of it, join the happening crowd on and off with 50% participation.. then go back to a smaller group of friends..then half and 15 min to half an hour later, will check out the happening among the happenings.

some managers and friend were asking me to dance..but guess i was a bit shy coz i felt that those who hit the dance floor could really dance well.. so i better run when neccessary.. i told them 'i am just greatly entertained upon seeing u guys dance'..well they replied, 'yr turn to entertained us!' well on the other hand i thought might go and learn some social/ modern dance if i got the free time.. its a good sport.

realised another thing.. some malays can really dance shake bom bom, and some married woman at the age of 40s and above are still so happening.. one of them even intend to go to devil's bar after the party.. whereas some of the chinese in 20s just sit and watch..and i guess i am one of them..

party is from 6pm to 11pm international plaza level 13. i left the place at about 10.30pm and headed allson hotel at bugis waiting for my mum to knock off and go home together..

After all the fun partying and warm and noisy happenings, i want to be in the presence of my mummy and to be sitting in a corner of the hotel enjoying the silence.. well wat a child i still ami realised.. imagine a friday night! i guess most young people will party all the way.. (on the other hand my leg kept complaining)

2nd day in school:

today is the same.. There were nothing much to do and the HOD seemed pai seh that he has nothing concrete yet.. anyway quite a jovial guy and i met my principal today..

anyway i only did the follwing for the whole day:

-potocopy material for staff meetings..
-supervise student counciler to put things into folder.
-attend staff mtg (from 2pm to 5.40pm)

school was so big that i dunno where is the toilet some times..and ya the water cooler too on my first day.. anyway i went to this west coast hawker nearby for my lunch.. looks good..going to explore it further in the coming days.. anyone who been there care to recommend what are the nice food..?

the day was good for me..did under more about the school and did enjoyed company party.
Thanks Lord :)

Batam Pictures (Nov 2006)

2006-12-29T17:22:00.000-08:00

After all, glad to know so many friends after the batam trip.. everyone were stranger to one another at first.. hopefully, we could be a pillar of support to each other in the journey of ccpe..

hee i've upload the pictures

2006-11-26T21:31:00.000-08:00

Actually the hk pix were taken quite long ago in 2006 may and some of them were quite blur.. but still i felt so happy to upload them though its not all..

its a special memory for me..

Will be there again..

Somemore ...

2006-11-26T20:57:00.000-08:00

Finally.. my hk photos

2006-11-26T20:22:00.000-08:00

will see..look forward

2006-11-23T21:17:00.000-08:00

I have finally learn how to take order.. yo!! but i make a mistake that resulted a dark face from my manager.. i made a wrong order which wasted a fish from company.. i told my manager that i am willing to compensate the fish by not taking a staff meal, meaning not taking meuniere fish next week for my staff meal.. she remarked , ' do i look like i am really so ji jiao..its ok lah.da jia you de chi jiu chi or something like that..'' I felt a bit warm hearing upon her words somehow..

i meant to leave shortly after my full time work and tuition for my cousin start.. but never underestimate the power of a nice boss.. it encourages loyalty from staff.. at the same time i am getting to know my colleagues there better.. well, will see..

I am looking forward to a couple of things..

1) the batam trip which my company organised as part of training
2) my work as a co-curriculum executive
3) tuition for my dear cousin na na
4) Christmas
5) A Happy New year

Happy and blessed day to you who are reading this.
Jesus loves you!! Christmas coming!!

Vivian Chow

2006-11-13T19:52:00.000-08:00

Vivian Chow in Singapore, Raffles Hotel..
(She was once a basketball player during her school days..Can you imagine?)

In remembrance

2006-11-13T18:30:00.000-08:00

This is a late entry in remembrance of my beauty model and perhaps a long lost friend..

I am so surprised to know that she would be in Singapore in early november when I knew that i will not be able to see her on 12 nov. Its a pleasant surprise..

She reached spore on 2 November, and i managed to see her on 3, 4 and 5 november. That was a close encounter.. did successfully gave her the things i want to give except a coffee cake which my friend has bought..

I told her that I can't see her in nov, she say its ok..can go then go, cannot its ok..

Before she board the flight back to hk, she commented that i have changed so much over the years ( i guess its 12 years) and have grown up and said she remembers all these.. i was really contented and was thankful to God.. and suddenly it occurs to me that having a personal pix with her are not so important after all.. (i din take a pix with her this time..)

I am also very happy to meet up with a group of friends.. seldom do we spend such long hours together since everyone is working and busy..

After miss beauty model went back to hk, we were all happily tired for the day..

To me, y is she a beauty model partly because she is such simple person..that inspired me.
(perhaps i felt most of the mei nui nowadays are so complicated..hahaha)

Once upon a time (1)

2006-11-12T19:02:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time, there was a poor princess. She met a few people from her royal kingdom.
Two princesses and one high post rank officer and she worked for them. They were very nice to her, and on a unbelivable level. The poor princess does'nt have to work, no one scolded her in the midst of her work..

The poor princess was lost..she felt insecured but she has her fair share of materialistic thoughts.. as she has never got such good deal before. good pay, good working time, nice boss, nice colleagues, less working load without having to really put in effort..

One day, it was revealed to the poor princess that the two senior princesses were fake, and the high post rank officer was also fake.. and it seems to her that everyone was fake..

After some struggles with her thoughts, she hoped she can forgive the people around her.. She is not sure whether is she able to do that. But she will try and she hopes that one day she is able to smile and chat with them from the bottom of her heart..

Ultimately, she left the fake royal kingdom.. because she wanted to be rich with the labour of her own hands.. and she believes in the theory of reap and sow. and she knew her secured position in the royal kingdom and her daddy is waiting for her although she dunno when..and she will be a rich princess in a real royal kingdom..!!
Stay till!

I love this princess!! And may everyone enter a real royal kingdom..one i.e. without deception and hypocrisy... but only the truth..

Goodbye RP

2006-09-29T02:23:00.000-07:00

It has really been sometimes since i last log in. And after this blog i dunno when will my next one be.

Finally goodbye to rp.. Thanks to all in rp :) Will miss irene my partners for these 7 mths..we have been through ups n downs together.. we come together and we go together.hee.. right will remember the bubble tea, bookshop ladies, cleaners, security guards.. and all the angels out there..

no time for long blog..
see all again..
hopefully i got a labtop soon.. :p

take care all..

Breakthrough followed by weekends

2006-09-11T19:21:00.000-07:00

Friday 08/09/2006

My original plan for the day was to work half day till 12pm, head for lunch, give tuition at 2pm for my little cousin nana. And at 4pm , i shall end it and it will also be a time to meet aunti kim, jia jun (my cousin), and my mum.. coz i have already planned that we all meet together and headed for Pastor Lim Gee Tiong's concert..(inclusive of Aunti Yin, sabrina's mum)..

Waking up for the day, I realised i was too weak physically for work, burdened with the stubborn cough and dreadful sore throat..(and somemore i got to use my voice in my work) a I decided to go and see my company doctor and take mc for the day..and i called off my tuition..

I rest till 3pm ++ to get my strength and make my way to meet Aunti Kim and Jia Jun to proceed to meet aunti yin and nana and my mum..for the Pastor Lim Gee Tiong's concert..i was actually still in a daze after taking medicine feeling very tired.. but i knew i have to hang on knowing the importance of my mission tonight..

To my wonderful surprise, mummy, aunti kim and aunti yin were saved!! At that instance, i know all my struggles with sickness and tiredness have not gone into waste..Praise the Lord!! You are great! This is really a miracle!! For those who know my family background you will agreed that this is a miracle!! and i just have a clearer picture how evil the devil is..he purposely make me sick for one week and preventing good things from happen.. he is here to steal and kill..i am determined to be stronger.. ! (Anyone out there struggling with anything, pray in the name of Jesus and don't give up :)

Father, give me health as you said that above all things it is your desire to see your creation propser in health and in soul and to do well.. do not let the devil to steal and kill.. and i pray that to anyone who read this that they too will propser in health and soul and do well in life.

Sunday 10/09/2006

After service, i meet up with pei and we have lunch at chong pang market..after which we proceeded to bishan to meet yin..after walking a while we went to cafe cardel ..shortly after man came.. and we went to see see look look again. after that we went for our dinner and headed home...

peaceful sunday..

The Gateau Affairs

2006-09-11T02:45:00.000-07:00

The best thing about this show is that you can see lotsa beautiful cakes and at certain times there are inspiring moments..

However i felt that the the chemistry between molie n joe was so so and everything happens too fast and the happenings were mostly expected..

(Bobo chan is cute inside)

anyway its still watchable as its simple and sweet..

Beauty

2006-09-05T20:30:00.000-07:00

Waking up for the day, I know you are there with me.. helping and encouraging me to wake up.. but i was too lazy and tired and am full of excuse and as a result I am late. Sorry.. don't mean to.. Continue to help me in your own ways.. i need you. Father take away this bad habit ..that i am in bondage for years so that i can be a blessing and not obstruct the traffice of life on earth.. and at the same time you give me a strong body.. Take away the cough and phlegms.. and tiredness in the morning.. Its your very nature to give and you are yes and amen.

Ready for the day, i aim to make the best and have joy.. was really enjoying my mp3 along the route to rp.. and soon i reached my destination and proceeded to scan my staff card for attendance..

There was this security guard who helped me with it and upon seeing my staff card picture he commented that i looked different from the photo and said that the picture was nice and now i had blemishes on my face.. perhaps he sounded innocent and harmless to what i felt or perhaps i have joy and confidence in me that was not easily being stolen away..
compared to the past.. imagine a vainpot like me would have given this security guard a sentence of hostility if it happens in the past year..

i used to be affected and doubt my attractiveness as a woman..and to a certain extent dignity of a woman..whenever people commented on the dreadful and disgusting blemishes.. still remember i stop talking to a handicaps colleague for 6 months and how my angry reaction was always immediate when i go through that.. Surprisingly today out of the norm, I can still smile at the security and not having a less of a joyful airene and still feeling attractive because i know i am beautiful in the sight of my creator..he says that i am fearfully and wonderfully made.. no 2 person are the same.. everyone are unique.. (God, you are great!! I am your masterpiece..so are everyone) I am comfortable being myself. (yes knowing my stubborn blemishes are still there but i have faith that it will be gone away one day!)

Consider the following because it is from the one who created you and this is what he defines beauty..

Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelery and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self , the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful. (1 Peter 3: 3-5 )

I understand every man and woman wants to be beautiful including a vainpot like me.. put this verse in my blog not trying to discourage beauty routine (nevertheless it is still a good practice to take care of personal image and health!) but rather to encourage inside out beauty (for myself too!) and definition of beauty of God..which is by far more valuable as never will fade and can stood the test of time.. What beats it man..

take heart.. You are beautiful!

爱得太迟

2006-09-05T18:53:00.000-07:00

Composer : 林夕
楊鎮邦

歌手 : 古巨基
周慧敏

古: 我過去抱緊她早晚共對到了紮職以後自覺太累
而即使相約到亦無言共對疏淡如水

周: 我過去也只因工作萬歲我愛侶極介意跟他比對
而最怕再奮鬥做強人下去有哪個能追

古: 最心痛是愛得太遲
周: 有心傾訴不可等某個日子
古: 盲目地發奮忙忙忙其實自私
合: 夢中也習慣有壓力要我得志

周: 誰會在意誰會及時
古: 只差一秒心聲都已變歷史
合: 忙極亦放肆見我愛見的相知要抱要吻要怎麼也好
古: 偏要推說等下一次

古: 我最愛等不到早已別去卻發覺身太累沒有眼淚
窮一生想再追但難尋舊愛都似獨居

周: 我也怕習慣了不靠伴侶誰和誰又約我一一婉拒
難碰上我最愛便獨立下去卻怕有人追

古: 錯失太易愛得太遲
周: 怎麼補救心中的刺永在此
古: 盲目地發奮忙忙忙從來未知
合: 幸福會掠過再也沒法說鍾意

周: 忘記上次唯有及時
古: 只差一秒心聲都已變歷史
合: 為何未放肆見我愛見的相知要抱要吻要怎麼也好
古: 不要相信一切有下次

周: 珍惜我所愛又花幾多秒這幾秒
古: 能夠做到又有多少
周: 追一秒
古: 未算少
合: 足夠遺憾忘掉

古: 多少抱憾(周:不要) 多少過路人 (周:抖震)
古: 幾多相愛
合: 幾多相處了又分
古: 人人在發奮想起他朝都興奮
合: 但今晚未過我要過也很吸引

周: 能吻便吻誰也是人
古: 理想很遠愛於咫尺卻在等
合: 來日別操心趁我有能力相親世界有太多東西發生
古: 不要等到天上擁吻

周: 天空海闊誰與你俯瞰

My favourite duet of the year!! Not exactly because its sang by my favourite artiste..but its really nice from from the bottom of my heart..

天空海闊誰與你俯瞰 ... Loves never fail!

My Weekends

2006-08-27T20:11:00.000-07:00

Friday 25/08/2006 :

Empress Dowager @ Tangs

I met the Empress Dowager at Tangs.. Have seen some of the familiar faces and even some new born faces.. at the same time. Its interesting.

Over the years, we have all come so far.. some married ..some with children..

This time, I came to support the event as a supporter..with no expectation.. just simple joy of seeing the empress with my group of friends..and having supper after which will filled my day. and did talk a bit to empress dowager and a sense of familiarity was back again.. i am contented. Thus Father thank you and I want to let you know I have not forgotten about you too.. For everything.. and thanks for the conversation i had with huiling.. that opens my heart to many things..

me and some of my close friends, we have started out as fans of empress during our school days..and our support were still there even when we have entered the working society.. i felt that the support was still the same but the means and mentality has changed.. even our surroundings and responsibilities has changed..even commitment has changed..expectation has changed..perhaps priorites and style has changed.. for instance, whenever people put empress as my idol i actually felt quite out of place in which sometimes i will just tell some of them that idols were made of wood..but she is not.. she is a human and i am a human in which we are made of flesh and have strength n weakness.. i probably won't bother too much when i am in my teens.. anyway i felt what was valuable was the precious friendship and memory.. just want to tell my dear friends that i hope you all have joy in whatever you are doing..

Saturday 26/08/2006

Met up with Baohua at Bugis and we chated quited a bit about our future plans.. and i realised that he seemed to be working at the networking company with Rui En.. He too ask me to do the body mass thing at $10 in which i told him i already promised rui en to go down to the company on mon..

After which , i went to cainhill area to meet rain from uan.. she has briefly told me that uan are based on hk and they are training people to be in the entertainment.. and that they have an audition..well i told her straightfront that i have no interest to be in the entertainment at this time of time..as i felt i m catching up on age and have not been active in performing these few years.. when i am not ready i am not comfortable and also i have other pursues in life..

after which, i went to newton hawker centre to eat..seems like that's a nice place with nice food where hawkers are competing with one another for customers.. i met a family of japanese who order rambutan, mangosteen, starfruit, mangoe and durian.. i was curious to see their reaction when eating durian.. hee they burst into eeeeeee , giving a smelly epxression and body language.. they asked me whether does singaporean eat durian everyday ..? i told them no but its a nice n popular fruit..

I went home after which and i saw my niece baby cadence.. had some fun playing with her, and reading the newspaper.. soon it was 12pm++ a time for sleep as i felt i needed rest for the sheares bridge run for the following day.. and i receive a msg from ting.. but despite that i m unable to sleep perhaps i just got some other things to do or perhaps i m last min.. for that instance i a bit scared i have no stength n i would not be in my best health n stamina..nevertheless i just sleep for the next day to come..

Sunday 27/08/2006

It was really early and i wake up at 6am carefully without waking up my baby niece.. i was swift for the day.. bought a chocolate along the way as my light breakfast before i start the 6km marathon run..

i met ting n kelly at raffles place .. we were all in our sporty wear..and we proceeded for the day..

first of all, going to award kelly for sportwomanship award..despite not feeling well, she came and support me n ting..thanks n muak!

and also going to cheer for me n ting as we really complete the run..! at the later part it actually rain..and it made us run even faster.. and i actually felt very determined to complete it.. and i want to thank you Lord for the rain as it spur n push us.. u knew we can make it! I thought of you and i knew you want me to have that kind of spirit whenever i am down and that you will always be there..

yeah! cheers! we have a good day and after which we went to chinatown for dim sum and liyi was there..

After which , we went on our separate ways..kelly to meet her sis, ting n liyi to donate blood..,me going home to bathe and sleep..

its a wonderful day to spend a sunday..running for marathon in the morning ..eating dim sum with tea after which, going home to bathe and sleep.. and after which was time for night service..

i felt inspired by pastor rony sermon..the part whereby he said if he has to be a dishwasher he will be and he will make sure he is the best dishwasher that do a sparkling clean job!..and added that he will not remain that forever.. but making plans to start a dishwashing company.. with reference from Matthew 25 abt the Parable of the Talentsi felt that the sermon was there to encourage the downcast.. Thank you Lord.

I am charged up for the week ahead from the marathon and the inspiring night service!
Glory to you my Lord Jesus Christ!

Unforbidden fruit..truly nice?

2006-08-24T19:44:00.000-07:00

A gal came to the counter yesterday towards the later part of the day.. she handled a few samples of codome to uncle Roy. (Don't mistaken. Uncle Roy is not the ham sup old uncle who is the hanky panky type.. He is a 20 year old boy who works temporary in the school and who loves to argue and nag at me. thus he is uncle roy.)

the purpose of the gal in coming to give samples to the school was to create awareness on the prevention of aids or something like that..

Well we made a joke out of it after which.. but seriously i thought something is wrong.. seriously wrong.. codome samples to be distributed to the students..????

I felt a bit sad somehow.. is that a kind of compromise? encouraging safe sex in a government institution? discouraging dangerous sex and compromise on premarital sex..

Perhaps the world has changed..perhaps i have never been in love and never knew the urgency of lust when you have a partner besides.. but i believe the beauty of keeping my chastity before marriage as i want to keep my marriage bed to be pure..and i want to give my best to the one.. i know it is difficult, and in no way i am in a position to say this since i am not attached..and honestly i don't dare to be sure i will be a virgin all the way before marriage but Father i will try my best and fight my life for that with your help!

And i always know your good intentions behind your commanments of no premarital sex:

1) You knew how frail and changeable like weather feeling is and how it can crash a woman's morale when there's a break up and she has lost her virgin. You wanted to protect woman emotionally and physically.

2) You wanted to prevent unwanted abortion.. You wanted to prevent a murder.

3) You knew there would be innocent babies that will be sacrificed.. and baby is a gift from you..its meant to bless and be blessed.. and i know they have always been the apple of your eyes.. you want to protect them.

4) You wanted your people to enjoy sex to the highest level.. and you knew by keeping our body to the marriage will give us the best beautiful experience. Surely you want to bless us with sex since you created it.. just that many people misunderstood you when you forbid premarital sex..

for those who are struggling on this aspect, anyone anywhere, i pray that you will be encouraged.. The Lord is with you and i am with you!

For those who has been a victim, or feels guilty.. Please stand up! The Lord still loves you, like your earthly parent who will never give you up.. He wants to see you well. He is ready to forgive.. And he wants to help you.

Lord, help us, young gals, anyone from anywhere, be it single, in a relationship, in a marriage, or those who are struggling in today's world..support us in our daily life.. and see us through.

Thank you Jesus.

Looking forward!

2006-08-24T01:55:00.000-07:00

Looking forward to cut my fringe this friday..
Looking forward to meeting my friends this friday night at tangs..
looking forward to look see audition this sat..
looking forward to meet baohua this sat as long time no see
looking forward to sheares run..
looking forward to seeing the sparklight kids..

and looking forward to breakthrough!!

Through it all

2006-08-24T00:28:00.000-07:00

It was dark,
brown and black..
It seems cold..
No one I see..

A voice I hear..
saying that the abnormal things of life has came to the mankind..
Great tribulations?
Rapture?

And a voice sang:
and i ... look to you,
and i... wait on you

As I hold on to my bolster,
hold on to my blanket with all my might,
laying on bed,
so much in fear that i dare not move even a little...
so much that I lack the courage to open my eyes,
and unwillingly i did that knowing i gotta faced the whole thing..

and i look to you,
and i wait on you,

verse of 'Through It All'
running through my mind..
so real, and I still don't dare to move
yet a part of me want it to be unreal..

and I thought about my beloved family and friends,
especially mummy..

Oh i am alone in my room..,
Oh i need to go toilet,
Oh how i dread to walk in darkness,
walking across the idols outside..

Jesus Jesus!
I called knowing the power of your name..
a name that is above all names..
in desperation,
knowing you are my help in times of need..

The light of the kitchen was on..
The light of the toilet was on..
Your peace upon me..

Walking past my parent's room, they were soundly asleep..
thank you thank you my Daddy in heaven!
You know I love them so much..

Dear Friend, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God, because many false prophets have gone out into the world. This is how you can recognize the spirit of God: Every spirit that aknowledges that Jesus Christ has come in the fresh is from God, but every spirit that does not aknowledges Jesus is not from God. This is the spirit of the antichrist, which you have heard is coming and even now is already in the world.

You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.

1 John 4:1-4

My God, my best friend, my stronghold, my hero, you are greater than the devil and you have overcome the world! You gave me the best encouragement with sharpness and punch! Best teacher! You walk with me in valley of darkness.. rain or shine.. you are there..for me, with me and in me! even though there are brown and black colour, through it all, you see me through with lights and songs! My all in all, there is none like you! I shall fear not, I shall move forward with courage knowing all your promises..!

And Father may you open the eyes of my loved ones.. and reveal to them that knowing Jesus is the best thing that can happen to anyone and is the most important decision in life and in the whole universe. And i pray that you will keep them, bless them for they are your wonderful creation..

I love them and I know God you love them too..

Move on Run!!

2006-08-21T02:12:00.000-07:00

Yes move on! Run!

I hope the sheares run this sunday is fun!!

It's time.. to move on

2006-08-21T01:53:00.000-07:00

Everyone says monday is blue.. but i shall want to start my monday this week at least with a rainbow color as a headstart..

for those who has read my blog regularly u will know that i have not been active.. well, after a period of some trials.. as i have been quite down for a period of time.. if i were to scribble n voice on my blog, i will be critisising people endlessly.. and i wanted a space from people.. to be away and in solitude for awhile..

guess its enough.. and time to move on.. n i hope i really do mean it and do it this time..

Wars Of In-Laws

2006-08-20T22:57:00.000-07:00

Wars Of In-Laws －我的野蠻奶奶

Cast:
Liza Wang
Shek Sau
Myolie Wu
Bosco Wong
Christine Ng
Eileen Yeow
Hong Wah
Ha Ping
Suet Li
Chan Hoi Yee

監製：關永忠

編審：蔡淑賢，梁恩東

演員：

汪明荃，胡杏兒，黃宗澤，石修，伍詠薇，劉家輝，雪　妮，姚瑩瑩

生於上等旗人之家的喜塔臘˙鑠蘭(汪明荃)自恃著格格的身分，四十多年來橫行霸道，極盡野蠻之能事。蘭兒子甯茂春(黃宗澤)到了適婚年齡，蘭為他強搶來一位她認為是全京城最好的媳婦，豈料陰差陽錯，兒子竟輾轉娶了山寨王之女田力(胡杏兒)。蘭吹毛求疵，但一山還有一山高，力亦不是溫婉和順之輩，婆媳各不相讓，終日吵吵鬧鬧，叫懦弱、缺乏主見的春左要遵循母命，右要討好老婆。卻原來一切皆是掩飾，春其實武功高強，且背負著不為人知的秘密……

Born in a royal family, Princess Shuet-Lan has been barbaric, obnoxious, unreasonable for forty years. Black turns white and white turns black from her mouth.. Her son mau chun (Bosco Wong) was of a marriageble age and suppose to be married to a royal concubine..but on the big day, she eloped and while seu yat (Myolie Wu) a young lady from a family of bandits together were trying to run away from a group of soldiers.., and she took the chance to escape by pretending to be the bride by chance..and she and and mau chun was accidentally married and that start the head and tail of the show..

To be honest, I thought this would be another show that would be crappy and trying to be funny.. but i though just give it a try.. hahaha but to my surprise i was rather entertained and i had enjoy myself.. and u might think i am crazy if i tell u i actually cry while watching the last few episode of this comedy drama.. yes i cry! i thought it was touching..! Beneath the humour, I see loves and humility..and perservance.. and i was thrilled to see princess shuet yat arguing with the emperor to save her son she remarked that the emperor too has made mistake.. when everyone thought she will be devastated and helpless in a corner when knowing that the emperor has given the order that his son to be executed..

Liza shines in this show.. ! no surprise that she won herself an award! I like her potrayal of princess Sheut-Lan.. its well seasoned.. at least she do made me laugh n cry.. and she just got this air that came naturally..

The Charm Beneath 胭脂水粉

2006-07-23T23:52:00.000-07:00

Chinese Title : 胭脂水粉

Cast:
Moses Chan
Gigi Lai
Yoyo Mung
Chan Hung Lit
Michael Tong
Anne Heung
Sharon Chan
Mandy Cho
Kiki Sheung
Cecilia Yeung Sze Sze
Tseung Chi Kwong

Producer : Mui Siu Ching ( Shine On You )

Honestly, when i came across this production, i was a bit disppointed to see the group of cast because most of them were unfamiliar to me and no one in particular i wanted to support much..and was also a bit disappointed that sheren tang was taken out of the show. However, the reason why i took a step to rent this drama serial was because the title 胭脂水粉 caught my attention and the gal at the rental shop managed to persuade me that this was a nice piece of work.. plus i have always been interested in periodic dramas.

Set in the 1920s and 1930s in Hong Kong, Halle De Fleur was the business owned by a very wealthy family, 'chuk family'. They were doing cosmetic business with roller lipstick as their star product. You can definitely expect politics among the family with loves, hatred, jealousy..and of course the good and better among the goods, and the bad and even worser among the evil. (Anyway not going to say much as just in case someone out there wants to watch the show..this is a show that one should not know too much in advance..)

What impressed me about the show was how the technique of 'xuan lian' was put to use. This was a term i learnt during my scriptwrighting module in nafa. It sort of means the technique of stopping at a point when its near to climax.. I felt a good 'xuan lian' is actually vital in sustaining the audience in captivity.. And i like the plot and the theme of family, romance and frienship. (However i felt that the scene that marks the end of problem was lame. How can someone succeeded in jumping into river and commit sucide in the pressence of so many good people who were 1 to 2 metre away.. and also i felt the real reason for the death of the founder of Halle De Fleur should be revealed to the family household members.. and Siu Hsing (the character played by Sharon Chan) should know the truth of who killed her brother..

Moses Chan as Cheuk :

Simply a 'bai jia zi' and lady killer who was yet creative , kind and carefree. After going through much, he became matured. (But i don't like the way he handles relationship. )

Moses' performance was ok but still room for improvement.. At times I felt he could have been a little bit more emotional esp the part when he saw his beloved being stabbed with knife.. something lacking still.. but i guess he just has the look of a witty spoil from rich family which makes him more suitable for the role than bowie lam who was replaced by him.

Gigi Lai Cheuk Wing Wai:

A sophisicated and smart woman who was observant and who truly cares for her family. Interestingly, her husband was played by Tseung Chi Kwong who was many years older than her and also in terms of looks.. He looks like an uncle.

Gigi did quite a good performance (even though i din really like her) except the part where she cried to which i felt could be improved though she manged to touch me in some crying scenes.. Anyway i thought this was a good role which TVB has given her and heard that the review for her was good.. (but my guts feeling tells me that sheren tang will also be able to do a very good job for the role as i felt she will be good for periodic drama..)

Yoyo Mung as Yee Fong

A gentle spirit lady who gets along well with everyone. She has her intersting and silly side even though she was shy towards the one she loves. A very gal next door who likes to watch drama and is also one who will go through thick and thin for her loved one.

I am not one who watced Yoyo Mung's show often. But i gotta say i likeYoyo inside the show..the potrayal of Yee Fong .. even though her hairstyle was ugly it has some air and ex-factor.. got wei dao..

Chan Hung Lit as Shan

Boss of Halle De Fleur .. A fatherly figure with authority and was Head in Cheuk family. Some respected and was grateful to him, and some trying to get into his good book for some motives.

I like Chan Hung Lit inside the show.. Felt that he's good as he has the air of a father.. and i felt his fatherly loves in the show..

Anyway, my favourite character in the series are Cheuk Wing Wai and Yee Fong!

A great show!

Morning & Afternoon.. Night

2006-07-20T20:46:00.001-07:00

Morning started the day,
with an alarm ..
Inside my blanklet,
tossing around,
not wanting to face it,
but yet i got to.
Perhaps i have lost the heart for the day..
perhaps i am still indecisive,
although not giving up..

Afternoon formed part of the day,
with a crying smile.
I know you are there,
yet I am running away,
getting myself lost..
I hope you will find me,
you can,
you want,
and you will..
with rainbow..

Can one sight decide for all?

2006-07-19T23:55:00.000-07:00

Eyes were open,
ear were hearing,
hearts failed to understand..
perhaps it was never meant to,
or never want to..

Voices were circulating the tight air for the night,
but i hear my cries more.
Yet, trying to be happy.

Can one sight decide for all?

saturday & sunday

2006-07-16T22:46:00.000-07:00

Saturday :

this was a working day.. royston was at work too.. i remember i dread myself from the bed and headed to work. was almost tempted to ask rui en to cover for me as i felt i needed rest for my sick body but think it was too late, its 8.30am i looked at the time..

anyway afterwork i headed home to rest.. and had my lunch. afterwhich i went to ang mo kio popular to do some research from my coming work on mon. pei and man were there to accompany me too. after which we went to have our dessert and i headed home while pei and man went to East Coast Park (which i suppose ting steph and kelly going the very next day)

at 7pm i went to miracle service.. felt better after that.

sunday:

waking up for the day, i decided to go for night service. as i felt maybe a night service will be better for me for the day..

Baby Cadence, my sis and my brother in law came back today.. hee cadence started to choose who can hold her and who cannot hold her.. this baby gal started to feel for her surrounding..and knows how to make noise to show.. anyway she was used to us after sometimes and just lay still with as we play and hold her..

After which, mummy went to work and i went to meet eddy which was a last minute decision made the night before.

Soon it was bishan station. I alighted and was looking out for eddy but i can't seemed to find him.. and i thought could it be i can't recognise him? the last time i saw him was many years back during my nafa days. soon he saw me.. and still quite the same except that he seems fairer. we went to this cafe cartel.. and i ordered camomile tea.. we had a good chat about those old memories when we are doing productions and our some of our future plans.. anyway we left the place at about 5pm and i felt i needed to get home to rest before i went to the 7pm service.

i met venon and ivy serving as asher today. Nice of them to give me a ride today..

i enjoyed the service.. remembering Pastor Bernette saying something like 'to finish strong, everyday is a masterpiece..'

Morning

2006-07-14T02:21:00.000-07:00

i woke up at about 9.30am, having and knowing the thoughts of reporting to work at 12pm for claiming of overtime.

i started the day with my washing up and quiet time followed by a meal. am happy to spend the morning with mummy..we watch tv together. hee..

What Colour

2006-07-10T22:56:00.000-07:00

I am writing this half an hour after i came out from toilet. As i was looking at the mirror, glancing at my black hair..i thought i look down to earth.. Am thinking of red cum purple cum blue.. shall be my next colour..

Shall i cut short my hair?
Shall i rebond my hair?
Shall i perm my hair?

well, will see how..

Sunday

2006-07-10T02:10:00.000-07:00

Wake up at around 9am+ for the day.. ate breakfast and prepared for service. there was some change of plan. i would be meeting xiao guijing at 12.55am after the service instead of 10.40am.

Service was a little fast than norm and i reached admiralty station in time to meet xiao guijing. after which she came to my house - we were watching TV and playing with bibi cadence (as sis and brother-in law came with her) Mummy also cooked nice nice dishes..so long never tasted her soup with sweet corn, pop ribs,onions, carrot and potatoe..yummy!! and love her chicken..love her vege ..love her fish..bibi cadence was so cute..she has brought much joy to the family.

After which i accompany xiao guijing to church a while and proceeded to take train to chinatown after the announcement made as i got an appointment with my beauty doctor cindy.

Again, she analyse my face, and did a scraper, extraction and blue laser shined on me. the whole thing took about 1hr.

i proceeded to bugis after that to meet shumin. finally i get to meet her to pass her the cds.

reached home at about 9.30pm.

i had an early sleep..slept at 12.30am..

its a great day!!

Saturday

2006-07-09T19:59:00.000-07:00

My initial plan of the day was to start 30min of running at 8am. But looking at the time, it was 8.30am. The weather was cool, my bed was nice, i dun want to be late and in rush with meeting up with pei. thus i decided to accompany my pillow and blanket a little while..

Never did i expected that 9.20am came so fast.. as i was meeting pei and her sis at 10.15am.. i did my preparation with a good speed ..and fly to ang mo kio. On my way, i met kai zhong..erm think gotta rephrase..he met me as he saw me 1st. A small world it is..as he was also going to Ang Mo Kio and some times back, i learnt we had a common friend that is Rui En..as he knew her through Johnson.

Ang Mo Kio station arrived and we walked to the Jubilee hall as kai zhong also wanted to say hi to pei. After which we proceeded to ang mo kio market for our breakfast and hopped onto the cab proceeding to Alexander Hospital with pei and her sis to visit their mother who had watched me grown up.

Aunti , pei's mum which i addressed looks good..i guessed she was on a recovery side. She ate the lunch from the hospital and the porridge pei bought for her after which.. while i also did spent some time chating with her, roaming the hospital and reading magazine. Soon it was 1.45pm and the visiting hours will soon be over till the next slot of time.. Thus we made a move.. Before that, I hold aunti's hand and prayed for her wishing her a speedy recovery, with strong health and able to walk with no side effect..(hee i actually find aunti to be comfortable looking..her eyes were actually big with defined double eye lid and was potentially fair.. i told pei that aunti must be a beautiful lady during her youth..)

Then, we went to Harbour Front Centre..and have a drink and snack at Breeks.. we shared buffalo wings, fish nugget with lime sauce, and i ordered Ocean, pei ordered brownie with ice cream and also a drink which tasted so sour.. Yinn came to join us shortly after and she ordered brownie with ice cream and ocean too.. we had a good chat.. after that we shopped around the area .. 5plus came and we went our separate ways as pei has to go back to hospital to be with her mum and family..Good gal man! i am impressed. (a potential good wife definitely. ) meiyin and i took 145 to head to toa payoh. after which i went back to woodlands for miracle service and yinn see see look look walk walk at the vicinity of toa payoh.

the testimony of the twin miracle babies were encouraging. I am so happy for my sis in Christ..who has been through disappointment, down times ...and ultimately God answers her prayer for wanting a twin pair of babies..With God anything is possible!! Amen.

looking forward

2006-07-07T03:18:00.000-07:00

waking up for the day, i looked forward to breakfast with mummy while watching the 37 TVB anniversay with her..its really a joy.. we had teh tarik with toast bread.. and she made chee cheong fun for me before i left for work..

a great start for the day!!

Thanks

2006-07-07T02:58:00.000-07:00

i knock off for the day yesterday at around 5.15pm.. before i left rp, i wanted to buy a peanut pancake for myself.. but aunti said she is running out of that kind of pancake..and thus she offered me another kind of pancake which has hotdog , cheese and egg..which was actually more expensive..but aunti charged me only $0.80. it was nice!! thank God and aunti..and as weather was fine, i decided to walk home.on the way, i saw an ice cream man and he gave me a free ice cream which he accidentally opened it the wrong way..thank God and uncle..i enjoyed my journey back home..

ate my dinner and watch tv..went to Shine Light ministry meeting after which.
ends at about 10pm..get to know some new friends today. thank God!

thank God that i no need to wake up early the next day too..hee

That time...

2006-07-07T02:11:00.000-07:00

Have not blog for a few days simply because i am lazy and not in the mood. but i have decided to do a capture of my past few days for my own record..

i managed to meet up with xiao guijing..so glad to see her..as it has been a yr since the last i saw her.. miss her man..!! Salute and congrates to her for completing her mission overseas!! I am proud of u !! Not easy to study oversea alone i understand.. well done! We went for 11am service and after which she came to my house.. we bought all the japa lang food..and watch beauty and war together ..after which we went to causeway point..to see see look look walk walk.. and have a great conversation with her.. its a great day. thank God.

for the past few days, i have not been running as i felt wind in my stomach. guess i have to change my diet..always love to eat the oily..and sweety and savoury taste..which usually clog up my whole health system .. maybe i should try and appreciatie the beauty of plainess in food.such as fish soup..yau tau foo(soup base)..or perhaps also ..friends encourage me ok!!
(hee am happy ..this week someone commented that i had slim down..)

A great day..

2006-06-30T00:12:00.000-07:00

Left the place at about 3 ++ and reached Toa Payoh at about 4.17pm. Wow there were sales going on and i win shop a while there.. and proceed to snooker zone to practice my pool.. hee not very good thus need practice.. after which i went to run at toa payoh stadium ..did 8 rounds.. i enjoyed the run despite my tired feet from the earlier win shopping.

Soon ling reached toa payoh.. and we meet up at about 7.50pm.. really long time no see. had a good time catching up.. still remember our struggling time during prudential days amd how we always rot around tanjong pagar areas and have a drink of Teh Tarik..Those were the days..

Blue Laser

2006-06-27T23:09:00.000-07:00

Meet Pei after work today at Ang Mo Kio. She accompanied me to the BCNG laser and medical aesthetics for my acne laser treatment.

I was then introduced to serene and Dr cindy.. so cute.. dr cindy was not the usual serious kind of doctor..it seemed like her hair was all made over (nicely coloured with red) and she wore a low cut sexy dress..with coloured share nails..

i was very hungry during the 1 hr blue laser treatment.. which was surpose to reduce my oil level at dermis and hypodermis ... while i lay there for one hour i can also imagine pei must be very hungry then..as she walked around the vicinity (serene also applied antibiotics on my face before i was under the laser light..

soon 1 hr was up. pei was already back by then..she bought me a swiss roll!! anyway i bought a bottle of multi-vitamins consisinting of B-complex, vit c, vit E, and zinc.. together with the laser bill. after which we went to lau pa sat..

we were so hungry!! hui called me shortly after and she joined us pretty soon..she was so tired..i ordered sweet and sour fish, pei ordered zhu za tang, hui ordered guey zap..

after which we took the train back home..
and hopefully everyone have a good rest sleep for the night..
i think i did..

The following for your reading pleasure if you are interested :

The B vitamins promote healthy nerves, skin, eyes, hair, liver, gastrointestinal tract, and brain function. The B vitamins are also coenzymes involved in energy production. B Complex is important for elderly people and a deficiency can mimic Alzheimer's disease.*

Vitamin C performs hundreds of functions in the body. It is crucial for the production of antibodies, strengthens connective tissues, helps reduce the duration and severity of a cold, assists with wound healing, and protects other vitamins from oxidation.*

Vitamin E, or tocopherol, is an anti-oxidant that prevents the fats and fat-soluble Vitamin A stored in the body from breaking down and combining with other substances that may be harmful to the body. It also protects red blood cells from rupturing

Zinc is required for the production of both RNA and DNA, the basic building blocks of the body. It assists the body in making the 200+ enzymes and is essential in the development and continuous normal functioning of the central nervous system. Zinc also plays a role in the metabolism of carbohydrates, proteins and fats.*

My Weekends

2006-06-26T00:35:00.000-07:00

Saturday

The last weekend seemed to fly fast. I was working on Saturday actually and was thankful that it was a half day and my health was getting better. A sense of contentment was in me to know there will be sweet and sour fish rice waiting for me when I reached home. (Papa bought one) At least, there was something to look forward to.

Time went fast. Strike one and I packed off to leave the working place. Brother and father were at home. There was not only sweet and sour rice, there was also Ee mee. I bought them all into my bedroom and set them onto my so call small dinning table and watch ‘Beauty and War’ (Jin Zhi Yu Nie) with a bottle of honey that was good for throat and with my air-con on. (Only occasionally)

Ironically, in such a relaxing ambience, and in the comfort of my bed after I finished my lunch, I was watching such a heavy show. Was a bit tired in catching the words by words politics between ‘liang liang’ and ‘gong nui’.. and even eunuch. (But I do felt that the script was beautiful sometimes)Perhaps I was tired, I fell asleep soon, wrapping myself with blankets and lying with my pillows entering into a dreamland. (Even though I knew it was so ‘sinful’ to sleep shortly after a meal. But thinking that my pillows and I have been missing each other, and thinking that I will run productively next week, I rewarded myself with such simple joyous gift.

Don’t ever underestimate what a sleep can do for you. I felt my heaty level in body dropped after my one hour sleep. Ulcer seemed to be better too and my mood was good. After which, I wash my clothes and read the newspaper. It was a leisure to me.

Soon, it was five. Time to meet pei at admiralty mrt. Together we meet man at Yishun and proceeded to kovan and headed to ‘xin wang cha can ting’ for a meal. This was the 2nd time I went to Xin Wang. (The 1st time I went to the branch at Marina Square.) I knew some people like the place some people dun like.. some people like the food some people likes the drinks whereas some people like the drink but don’t like the food.. I felt that I enjoyed the HK ice milk tea there although comparatively, not as authentic. But for the bo lo bao that I ordered, I am not very impressed. Fried chicken was normal. Anyway I still like the place a lot because I like the idea of cha can ting. But I knew pei and man felt that the food cannot make it and poor them as they were sort of accompanying me as I was the one who suggested it.

After our meals we went to see see look look walk walk. Even though Heartland Mall seemed small there were quite a few cute stalls around. I saw a brown top which got ‘air’. I felt tempted to buy it at the 1st glance.

After which we took bus to Ang Mo Kio we sat down again to have drinks. Reached admiralty at about 11am plus. Since there was pasam malam, I see see look look walk walk again. Reached home at about 11.45pm.

A simple yet relaxing Saturday with close friends. My thanks for you father.

Sunday:

The day was so comfortable. My bed was cool and I felt cool. Waking up for the day, I started it with 2 breads with butter and jam and hot hot teh si. While eating, I continued to watch ‘War and Beauty’. This particular episode was nice and I enjoyed it. After which , I set off to prepare to go to church.

Service was real and thought-provoking. I felt touched that day. Had always appreciate Pastor Rony’s sincerity.. I can feel his disturbance, stress and his love for the congregation and people.

I knew Father you are around at all times!
I walked out of church feeling the peace and feeling empowered, knowing that your light is upon me.

After which I walked towards Admiralty station going to Marina Bay to meet steph and kelly. Glad I am able to reach there before two. Met the 2 of them and song liang reached shortly after.. We were all wondering how the surprises will turn out to be..

Finally we saw the birthday gal of the day with liyi.. we were all hiding behind the grass with kelly holding on to the birthday cakes.. haha when it was getting excited the 2 gals went the other way.. so funny.. we had to get up and sort of to call them. They managed to see us. hee. we mum mum, fly kite, play zero point and hotscotch after which..It was fun!! And certainly a good workout. Happy birthday Ting! God bless you.

As I have to rush to aunti lan's place for family gathering and niece Xiang Ling Irish birthday celebration, I could not join the gals and song liang for ice cream ..

The occasion was at Hougang. was there at about 8.25pm. The place was full of small little ones, medium ones, big ones.. Glad to see my relatives..auntis uncles and cousins..nieces.. Am thankful that i have nice relatives .. I enjoyed the bbq chicken, satay, bee hoon, fried rice, chicken curry and many others..cooked by my uncle mostly..always felt he is a good cook! (if not wrong he really used to be chef..)

Left the place at around 9 plus. I enjoyed the day..and was thankful for it.

I enjoyed my weekends.

Premenusration Syndrome

2006-06-23T02:42:00.000-07:00

Felt very tired these few days..and particularly today dun feel like talking..perhaps have not been feeling well recently..with my flu, throat and ulcer..and right now is premenustation process..that means fatigue, breakout, water retention, bloatedness, and cramps.. and also moodiness..

Forgive me ok to all around me.. if i look super sian.. I have copy and paste the following from a website link :

(Yeah...perhaps I should look on the bright side..tomoro is weekend..)

What are the most common symptoms?

Whilst many women do not suffer PMS, others may suffer one or more of the following symptoms:

Emotional Symptoms:
irritability
anxiety
nervous tension
mood swings
lower coping ability
depression
aggression
difficulty concentrating
lower libido, rarely increased libido
feeling unloved
wanting to be alone
reduced interest in work and social life
Physical symptoms
Fluid retention (swollen fingers or ankles)
bloating around the abdomen
breast swelling and tenderness
headaches ranging from mild to a severe migraine
tiredness, lethargy, insomnia
increase in weight
constipation
food cravings especially sweet foods
aches and pains particularly lower back, legs and abdomen
poor coordination or clumsiness
skin problems such as acne
occasionally increased energy

How do you tell if your symptoms are PMS?

Whether you suffer one or a few of the above symptoms, it is the timing of the symptoms that will indicate whether or not you are suffering PMS. Symptoms due to PMS will only occur after ovulation (mid-cycle) and will disappear during the next menstrual period. Mark your symptoms on a calendar or keep a daily menstrual chart over two to three months to help your doctor with the diagnosis.

Lifestyle factors that may help towards relieving your PMS symptoms

Eat regular, healthy meals including plenty of vegetables, fruit, mixed grains and cereals

Eat small meals to maintain stable energy levels, this will also significantly reduce food cravings

Drink less caffeine – particularly if you are suffering breast tenderness. Try drinking water instead! (6-8 glasses a day)

Cut down on alcoholic beverages

Cut down on salt and salty foods to help reduce fluid retention

Get enough rest, sleep and exercise

Don’t smoke

Wear a well fitting cotton bra if you suffer tense, painful breasts.
Exercise
Regular exercise is important, particularly during the premenstrual phase. Walking is an excellent form of exercise and has the advantage of being both cheap and easy for most people. Swimming, yoga, aerobics, netball, tennis, golf and cycling are other suggestions. Make sure you choose a form or variety of exercise you enjoy – otherwise you will not pursue it.Exercise increases endorphins (one of the brain’s neurotransmitters, or chemicals, which decrease premenstrually in PMS sufferers) and therefore may reduce symptoms. Endorphins also act as natural pain killers and help you to feel more relaxed and in control.

Reduce Stress

Make an effort to avoid extra stresses (mark your premenstrual time on the calendar so that you can avoid major activities)
Talk to your family about your PMS so they can have some understanding of the problem. Help them develop strategies to be supportive during this time

Try not to take your aggression out on your family

Take time out to relax and enjoy your own interests

Try to develop your ‘positive’ thinking

Seek professional counselling

If your PMS symptoms continue to distress you, consult your doctor. It is important that other possible causes of the symptoms are excluded. Although no 'cure' can be offered there are many treatments that help reduce and, for some women, completely alleviate PMS symptoms. It may be necessary to try different treatments before you find the most effective one for you.

Treatment of PMS

Natural Therapies
Many women feel they benefit from a variety of natural therapies but none have been proven in controlled studies to be beneficial, their effects being no better than placebo, i.e. about 30-40%reductionin symptoms. Vitamin B6 (Pyridoxine) has been used to reduce emotional symptoms and fluid retention but in doses no greater than 50-100mg per day as high doses can lead to peripheral neuropathy or loss of sensation in fingers and toes.Evening Primrose oil has been used to reduce breast tenderness in dosages up to 3000mg per day.St John’s Wort is a plant serotonin enhancer, which may reduce mood symptoms. Other preparations such as Chaste Tree have also been used.Talk to your doctor, naturopath or pharmacist about this group of medicines.

Hormonal Therapies

The combined oral contraceptive pill (COCP) may be prescribed because it prevents ovulation and for some women this will provide relief from her symptoms. The monophasic pill (with the same hormone dose in each active pill) is more beneficial than other types such as either the triphasic or biphasic pills.Other hormone preparations have been tried such as progestins, progesterone and oestrogen preparations. Only oestrogen patches and implants have shown to be beneficial in controlled studies.

Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors (SSRI’s)

The SSRI’s have been studied extensively in placebo-controlled trials and have shown significant benefit in reducing symptoms, particularly the emotional symptoms. These medications increase serotonin in the brain and improve mood in particular. The medication may be taken cyclically (in the premenstrual week) or continuously. The most common SSRI is fluoxetine (one form is Prozac), but others also prescribed are sertraline (Zoloft) and paroxetine (Aropax). Many women take this therapy long term without adverse effects. The SSRI’s are the recommended treatment of choice.

Most women with PMS will respond to either the hormonal therapies or the SSRI’s but there is a small group of women who do not benefit. This group is most likely to have a disorder of mood rather than PMS and should seek specialist help.PMS is a distressing problem for a small number of women who have severe symptoms.

Conclusion

Unfortunately the cause(s) of PMS are largely unknown but there is more evidence to suggest there are changes in brain chemistry which trigger the symptoms experienced.
There is no "Quick Fix" or cure but there are many ways to help reduce the symptoms and improve quality of life.
Some women benefit from simply charting their symptoms and developing strategies to minimise stress, whereas others may reduce stress with an improved diet and exercise routine.
Other women will require prescriptive medicines such as hormonal therapies or the SSRI’s.

After Work

2006-06-23T00:40:00.000-07:00

Went to wood groove with Rui En yesterday after a long day at work.. it was a day when i felt very tired yet dun want to go home as I have to settle my dinner outside.. (perhaps because of the ulcers..)

While Irene went to pluck her eye brows i went to explore the place.. Well i thought i will my role there was juz to see see look look walk walk..never did i expect myself to walk into ''forty winks..'' I did a 30 min scalp massage there ..for juz $13!! (Its having Worldcup Promotion) the dunno indo or thai lady also helped to do my tired shoulders, neck and hands.. i was just there , completely absorbed into the soothing ambience and enjoying the wonderful pain the massager inflicted upon me.. That was great.

After which we went to the hair salon as she wanted to cut her fringe.. I was there observing the surrounding and the skill of the hair stylist while eating away..

The cutting of fringe was fast.. we then went to dessert stall then upon seeing a poster of soy products.. saw a pair of nice glasses..white frame $90 ... tempted to buy. considering.. ahhh!!

Met bin bin on my way back. Long time no see..

Mouth Ulcers

2006-06-21T23:07:00.000-07:00

As I am suffering from one painful and very much dreaded ulcer on the interior of my lower lips, thus I did a research on it. Found a website which wrote the following:
(Hope you find it enriching)

Why am I so prone to mouth ulcers?
A primary reason is stress and insufficient rest, for instance you're having too many late nights or you're working too hard. Stress causes your body's immune system to deal less well with bacteria, and there are plenty of bacteria in the mouth. People with chronic anemia, gastrointestinal disorders or constipation tend to get ulcers often

Can certain foods cause ulcers?There are people who get ulcers if they eat spicy food, or snack too much on salted nuts and potato chips. Ingredients in food preservatives, like benzoic or sorbic acid, can cause an allergic reaction that results in a mouth ulcer for some. Others may be sensitive to something in the food, such as gluten, or to citrus fruits like oranges and lemons, which may be too acidic for them.

How long should a mouth ulcer last?It should go away within one week. Any ulcer lasting longer than two weeks should be seen to by a doctor. He will probably prescribe topical steroids or oral antibiotics to treat the cause, not just the ulcer. Consult him, too, if you have more than four ulcers at any one time or if you get ulcers very often.

Besides stress, what are the other reasons?When the skin in your mouth is traumatised if you accidentally bite or cut your lip, for instance, or a toothbrush knocks against your gums. Ulcers can recur if you have metal braces or ill-fitting dentures, or if you have dental problems like a chipped tooth or uneven filling. Constant irritation is unhealthy, so see a dentist if these problems bother you

Is it normal to get two or three ulcers at a time?Most mouth ulcers appear singly, but occasionally they come in small clusters. The size of an ulcer can range from a pinhead to a five-cent coin. Ulcers stay in one place they are not infectious and they don¹t spread within the mouth. But it often happens that when you have an ulcer on the lip, say, you tend to bite the same spot because it¹s swollen. This can cause the ulcer to become bigger, or you can get another ulcer.

Do mouth ulcers appear only on the lips and gums?Ulcers can also appear on the tongue, inside the cheeks and even on the soft palate or roof of your mouth. Ulcers in these places tend to be more painful. How do I prevent mouth ulcers from recurring?Have adequate rest, avoid spicy foods, stay away from coffee these are just some of the steps to take if you always seem to be getting ulcers. When brushing your teeth, try not to be too vigorous, and avoid using a toothbrush with hard bristles. You can also boost your immune system by taking a Vitamin B complex.

What can I do to relieve the pain?Ulcers take about one or two weeks to heal completely but the pain mostly lasts just two or three days. For pain relief, try:

Glycerine it soothes the pain. Apply every hour or so.

Bonjela the cool gel may sting a little but it¹s a good antiseptic. Use every two or three hours.

Tea tree oil it soothes and helps prevent the ulcer from getting bigger. Pour a drop onto a cotton bud and apply on the area three or four times a day.

Listerine an effective anti-bacterial mouthwash. Wash as often as you can.

Choline Salicylate cream ask the pharmacist to recommend one. Apply on the fingertips and rub gently on the ulcer three or four times a day.

Wet teabags Tannin is mildly astringent and relieves pain apply on the ulcer.

Yoghurt it helps get rid of mouth bacteria. Look for one that'sunsweetened.

Vitamin C take 500 milligrams three times a day for three days at the first sign of a mouth ulcer.Avoid salty and acidic foods because they irritate the sore.

You should also take lots of fluids and get more rest.

See a doctor if:

The mouth ulcer is so severe that even taking fluids causes pain.

You have four ulcers or moreat the same time.

Your ulcers keep recurring.

The ulcer is painless yet doesn't go away it could be a symptom of cancer or syphilis, a sexually transmitteddisease.

Starting of the day

2006-06-21T20:00:00.000-07:00

So happy that I did not drag myself to wake up later than 7.45am today as I always did that. Move myself up at 7.30am. I am able to prepare fast enough to have breakfast..without having to compromise my daily routine of preparation..

Mummy was up early too.. The 1st thing she did was - U-zap a mother's day gift to her.. Glad she used that because last time we bought her foot water therapy, it went into the storeroom to collect dust.. While i was about to leave the house, she was still there U-zapping watching Legend of the Condor Heros.. ( Its the Louis Khoo version.. Actually till date, I find Andy Lau's version still the best!)

I hope to start the day with grace, hope and joy...
Be it the same to you okay, you who are reading it now :)

Remedies for an unwelled body

2006-06-21T02:44:00.000-07:00

Remedies for an unwelled body :

1) Drink lotsa water : 8 cups (and plain water please)
2) Sleep 8 hours (Before 12am please)
3) Eat vitamin C (be consistent please)
4) Exercise 3 times a week ( half an hour of cardio exercise at least please)
5) No freak out and stress out.. (No no .. nothing can really beat health come to think of it..)
6) Drink honeysuckle flower.. (Good for immune system and skin..)
7) Take almond drink (good for throat)
8) Take fruit
9) Take tense up
10) Take vege..(but please not kangkor with samba chillie though u love it..)

An apple a day keeps the doctor away..
I hope i can keep up with all these..
Good health to me Father.. Amen.

Hee..By the way

2006-06-21T02:15:00.000-07:00

Hee by the way, she is Melissa Ng i am talking about...to my view an underated artiste...

La Femme Desperado

2006-06-20T23:12:00.000-07:00

Ever wonder what is La Femme Desperado? Think it simply means desperate woman or direct translation from the above 女人唔易做 ..... (woman hard to be ...)

I started to watch 女人唔易做 beside I left for my Hk trip that time.. It was actually quite a new TVB drama that was still airing during that time..

Rented this piece of work was perhaps because of Melissa Ng and the theme 女人... and to be more exact modern 女人... When it was out at that time, not many people thought well of it as it seems a small scale production.. Haha, who knows , it do turns up well for the viewership in HK I heard..and that raised awareness..

Well its not those extreme highs and lows drama serial that wore you ups and downs..but its interesting in its own way.. as I felt that I relate to it in parts and little..

I have to say that Sheren Tang Sui Man did a good job of the potrayal of Hilda..a bossy yet caring boss..., a seemingly hard but soft woman inside ... Can't imagine if its other actress to protray this character cause I like Sheren Tang's air inside so much..

Was so happy that Melissa Ng could get the role of 'Ah Ling'.. She has an air of sophisication.. yet not quite intimidating..(Hope she will get more recognised soon.) But sometimes I do envy the superior and subodinate relationship of Hilda and Ling inside the show. Is it possible? Can you imagine the thoughts of staying at your superior's house overnight..or can you imagine you having a one night stand with your subodinate ex-husband who stepped on 2 boats... Or has any female boss teach you the art of wearing bra..?

Think Michael Tse (Xie Tian Hua) (Remember the bao ya lawyer he had acted in one of the TVB drama with Hacken Lee? Or anyone remember he played the bad guy in 1997 Snow Wolf Lake? ) suits the role of 'Ah Man' well... Its an encouragement to the bad boy out there.. Every good has bad ... Every bad has good...

Knew some of my friends like Raymond Lam (Ling Feng)..and might made noise ... I find him irritating..even though I think he played the childish yet smart Siu Chai well.. Don't know why..perhaps Ling Feng's look and the character of Siu Chai reminds me of someone that I shall not comment here.. Anyway guys out there...if you want to understand your gal friend or wife more , think you can observe the relationship of Siu Chai and Ling as an onlooker and think ... Go rent the show! (For the fashion sense inside too..)

P.S. Guys out there, heard that there's going to be a male version of La Femme Desperado ... Look out!!

Play rest and relax..

2006-06-18T19:53:00.000-07:00

Weekends were simple, relax and fast for me..

I was supposed to meet beibei on saturday..and but was changed to sun.. Thus I meet hui n pei for lunch as hui happened to ask me for lunch..we met at bishan and surprisingly man was there also..went to the foodcourt and swenson for ice cream..yinn came shortly after..

after which i meet ting step n kelly at chinatown..we went to party world to rock the day..though throat and nose were not exactly well, enjoyed it still..

On sunday saw niece cadence my sis n bro in law..cadence always cried and i know her cries were fake.. :p but i suppose that was the most powerful weapon for all bibi...had a sumptous meals of sweet & sour prawn, black sauce fish, steam fish, finely cooked broccoli &cauliflower with many ingredients,beansprouts,eggs,rou chou..all finely cooked by my mum mostly...yummy.. After which i went to orchard to meet beibei to exchange our hk drama serials.. after which we went on separate ways after a meal at mosburger.. i proceeded to win shop a while and went back woodlands..went to church for service and bum onto brother john who gave me a ride..

eat an watch tv one of my favourite pass time, when i reach home.. pause and wash all the dish and did all the drying of clothes.. then i continued my show..finally i felt tired and dread myself to do sping cleaning for my face..and had slept for the day..

My Hong Kong Trip 25-29 May 2006

2006-06-15T00:21:00.000-07:00

2 weeks has passed since my Hk trip. I decided that it was time to record the wonderful experience I had.. No more procastination...

(More pictures coming up the coming blog...)

Day 1:

The day before I was busily packing my things..u name it I have it..Remember I was worried about my cleanser being dripped at that time..but somehow I find that lugguage was never really a big problem somehow just that I am lazy..(Maybe you who are reading are also like this..:P) Come to think of it, I have never forgotten to bring any major things when I knew I am suppose to be away from home..Sleep was brief..Body was ache..I slept at 2am and woke up at 3.30am..Sound farmiliar for Jetstar budget traveller..? Left home at 4.1oam so as to catch my flight at 6.40am..Soon I was out on street to look out for my booked taxi..Sky was real dark..felt scared and lonely..but I knew Jesus was with me..No thing to be scared of..Taxi driver was friendly..After checking in at Terminal one, shumin and I headed to mac cafe for breakfast and nyx and her friend went to have a drink. We went on separate ways..Time flies..we left the departure gate and boarded the plan..was a bit excited was a bit scared..the reminder of what happened in sept 1999..(I fainted on plane in sept 1999 from the flight back to Spore from Korea.. The kind where u often seen in drama..where the captain and stewardess tried to wake the victim..as dramatic as u can imagine..but thank God I never give my 1st kiss away :P) But this time I am determined to be an overcomer of my phobia for flimething gals..never wear heels when you are taking a plane..)Soon we were at Hong Kong International Airport!! Away from Singapore..meaning away from work,and the usual routine of life for a period of time..! We 3 bought the octopus card..entitle 2 airport express ride..and unlimited mtr travell for the 1st 3 days and and value of $20..(we took express ride from airport to kowloon..and mtr from there to Yau Ma Tei station.)
YMCA International was near Yau Ma Tei..We easily found our way there from the MTR..And one thing i noticed about the mtr in hk is that when one reached the final exit for a certain destination, to climb a staircase is unavoidable.. So can you imagin with my heels, and heavy lugguage and bag..how i climb up the ladder..all because I am such vain pot..! Serves me right..
I quickly settle my stuffs in the hotel (16-13)..right thing at the right place..rest for a while..and i went to 'tang cheng' for lunch with shumin..she said that it was famous and many celebrities have been there..(Located at Tsim Shat Shui) I was very hungry at that time and I just followed her..Ordered mango smoothie (coz the color was nice) and wanton noodle..For its the 1st time i made an exception ..coz i think since i m in hk maybe should give a try to their wanton..even though i was not impressed by it but I do think that its finely cooked..
After we finished the 1st meal we had in hk, we went on our separate ways..felt excited coz i am left on my own..it sure was a challenge to me because that was the 1st time I hit hk..not knowing hte routes, the buses, the mtr well enough..and further more, i need to brush up my cantonese..Precisely! All thesse were exactly the reason I found it so exciting..because there were so much to explore in the unkown..walking around in tsim shat shui, i am fansinated by the crowds, by the small shop, by the old buildings..the atmoshpere shall i say..Soon, Nyx called me to say that she will skipped her lunch and stayed in the hotel within..as she wanted to wait for kathy.. thus I bought some octopus ball and egg waffle back at the street since i was only 60% full at the same time..(the street was crowded..there were many nice shops..i saw a shop which sell bras with lotsa variety..
After I finshed with my so called win shopping or exploration..i went straight back to the hotel intending to pass the food to nyx..I went for a hot bath then..It was comfortable..
After which, I went down to the lobby to settle my keys.. in hk hotel guest would be encouraged to drop their key into the droplet as they will only give one key so that whoever is back can get it from the counter without having to wait for the others..anyway saw nyx and kathy..i joined them to go to Grand Stanford to look for the overseas fans who were helping to coordinate concert tickets and gather matters..
After we got our tickets, Nyx and I went on to explore the nearby areas. Nothing much actually..and we proceed to walk towards HK Collesium. It was during that time I finally got news from Eric. He was trying to find me and I was trying to find him..at last finally.. Eventually we all met at HK Collesium. That was the first time Nyx and Eric meet.. Shumin meet us there too..And that was also the first time Eric and Shumin meet.. (In the midst, I bought a terrible can drink which was rusty..and I threw it away without any hesitation..)
We were inside soon..I was feeling very excited despite my tiredness..because it has been 10 years. And this was the 1st time I stepped into HK Collesium .. a kind of simple dream for me when i was young..
Wow, V has a V look! That instant, the audience cheered and applaused! It seemed that we were all in a spaceship that arrived in the 90s. To me, it also meant my childhood memories..and also the time when I was still a teenager..Deeply truely madly, I was touched and proud to be a part of the concert Back For Love.. (Hacken Lee, Leo Ku, Gu Zu Lin, Lin Long Xuan, Chris Wong was there as performing guest too) Yes Leo sang that! Ai Yu Cheng! Yeah..He's cute at the same time.
(for those who are interested to watch a concert and wanting to shoot video clip, be alert! a gal was being chased out in the midst of the concert because of that..but think taking picture will be okay.)
After the concert..its part of a rountine to move forward to a set up rails for fans..It seemed arranged ...an add on session of shaking hands with the fan..I felt that it V's way of expressing her appreciation for her fans.. She aknowleged my presence in the midst of fans.. :p (One interesting thing was that all the people who were at the rails were all adults not the usual 13 14 teens..Can you imagine a group of working adults standing at the railways?) The waiting was long as there were reporters interviewing her i supposed.In the midst i saw tiff!! we met)
As Nyx got back to Hotel 1st, there were only Shumin and me to take cab back to hotel..it was late..but we were both hungry yet tired..Thus we went to da bao food back to the hotel. I went into this cha can ting whereby I am captured by its London look..Felt that I am a wandered artiste when i went in. (Shumin went to the other cha can ting) After we got our food, we went straight back to the hotel and slept after eating our supper..It was around 3.30am..

Day 2

Woke up at around 9.30am..I felt cold..Quickly,I went to wash up and prepared myself for another exciting day.. Told myself that I gotta hit shopping and have a good meal..As Shumin already have in mind what to do and where to go in the early part of the day, thus I will meet up with Eric and Nyx... But before we set off for the day, we went to 2282..That was my 1st interaction with Winter. She helped me took a very nice picture :) Love it man!!
After my usual preparation routine, I started the day with a breakfast with Nyx..I remembered that the uncle who was taking order was a bit impatient and irritated when I could not made up my mind what do eat. He walked off..and think he came back to the table after i called him..But he remarked ,'' Be quick!" Wow that's really attitude..But I think i can take it because this is basically not my very own homeland..although I felt embarassed.. Anyway food arrived slow and I realised that in Hk the food arrived a bit slow usually. (I ordered macaroni with ham and egg and a cup of milk tea.)
After which we meet Eric at the MTR. Our 1st stop was Wang Jiao Zhong Xin. We decided a meeting place and a meeting time and went our separate ways to explore the place. Kelly was right..I like the place. Many small pretty shops..many.each is unique in its own way..And most of them you can bargain. I bought 2 pieces of 1 piece dress which i hardly find one that i like in spore for about $30 (sing dollars) That's a good bargain right? The salesgals were friendly and I was so happy that I took a picture with them. After which I looked around for shoes, long necklance and many others..my heart really crave for a shoes that time because i am still wearing the heals..tired..but unfortunately i did not find one that gave me the thought to use $$ to exhange..there was this uncle who was irritated when I tired some of the shoes and did not buy in the end..its all shown on his face..eventually i just walked out of his shop..Then in the midst of my contineous shopping, i suddenly realised that i lose the 2 pieces of dress that i just bought.. and during that time Judy called me to discuss about the meeting time for her to pass Ah C cds ..Think was a bit so call paranoid that I could not talked to her really much at that time..I was a bit gang jong(time was also up as i am supposed to meet nyx and eric)..as i felt that i cannot let the lost of 2 newly bought dress to be true..thus despite my tired legs, I went to search for it at all possible shops with all of my heart. To my once more embarassment, it was at the mentioned irritated uncle's shoe shoe. The very instance i stepped into his shop once more, he gave me my plastic bag of dress gentlemanly. I felt the need to buy shoe from him for his honesty..but frankly i found it hard to buy because i think its simply not suitable for me(in another word 'cannot make it'). He shooed my out in the end.. when i m stuck.. After which, I went to meet Nyx..(Guess not as good a shopper as me, Eric was probably bored by our supposed to be 1 and half hour shopping at wang jiao zhong xin..within that time..he has already visited ladies st and temple st..) And we went to Ting Wah as she wanted to check out something there. After i finished exploring the place, I spotted a nice place to take picture thus i snapped my camera..At that instance, a security stopped me nicely and told me that picture taking was not allow..But perhaps due to my good attitude, he advised that I could take picture without stepping into the vicinity..he helped me to take some and we chatted for about 15 minutes while waiting for nyx..This duration, i came to know that he was a chinese lecturer before and he was having some communication problem with his wife and his sons who were all Christian.. I prayed that Father you will bless the family..and strengthen their ties ..For I know you hate divorce.
Nyx and I went to Xu Liu Shan to have dessert after which..I have already decided that this would be a place I have to visit..Anyway I have forgotten the name of the dessert i ordered...but it filled with real mangoes..and have good mango pudding plus a large portion of milk element and of course there were other ingredients..So you can imagine how much i enjoyed..as far as i could remember nyx ordered something which has bird nest and xue har..
After which, we went to the nearby ladies st. Same as before, we decided a meeting place and time and we went on our separate ways. Ladies st was just like a bigger version of singapore's bugis village, with bigger crowds and daring bargains. You can find clothes, shoes,sunglass, antique, fans, chopstick, dice,majong etc there. I bought tea cup with for my father..and bought a special hair clip with strips of shiny bead for my mum..at 1st the sales person wants to sell it at 45 hkd..but i told her that i will only accept it at the price of 30 hkd and below..and i think i changed my mind and fixed it at 25hkd and below..that very instance, she tired to persuade me to let her earn $5..and i in turn asked her to let me saved $5..After which, I told her its ok..and with all of my heart, i gave up the thought of buying that..then suddenly she quickly wrapped the hairclip with newspaper and said that its a deal..then i asked her so is it for 25 hkd? and she replied , '' Just my luck to run onto you!''. I felt weird and was thinking then don't sell it to me lor..but at the same time i bought it coz i thought that was a good deal.. (but well later on , my friends who were residing at hk told me that it could even be as lower as 10hkd after taking a look at the hairclip..so a piece of advice for those who wants to go to ladies street : these people are trained..so be trained too! )
Time flied fast. Half the day was gone. We went back to the hotel. Nyx to take a rest..for me its rest and to prepare a letter for v. Soon it was time for shumin me and nyx to take cab to go to hk collesium..it was so rush that i took hotdog burger with a vitasoy(wei ta nai) that i liked.(cannot be found in spore) remembered that i was so hungry at that time.. I quickly finished it outside the vicinity of hk collesium as i dread the thought of being chased out for eating food..but amazing thing was ice cream was sold there..so by right eating was allowed while waiting for concert to start..i thought i should have brought in my food..
Anyway as the concert started , the audience wowed and cheered as usual! One thing different from the 1st night concert was that there were new performing guest artistes. At the earlier part of the concert Ah lam (Lin Zi Xiang was there) v and him sang 'sometimes when we touched' Thought ah lam was cool.. he put the audience on good cheer.. shortly after, vivian was on stage again. she was emotional..cried at the early part of the concert beyond her control. my tears dropped uncontrollably somehow..as i witness her performance and growth for each of us over the years..many beautiful memories.. when she sang 'ru guo ni zhi wo ku zhong' a song written by leslie chong, the atmosphere was emotional..its a 90s time pieces of music..everyone applaud at the this song with regconition..
Samuel chio was there too! I seemed to have my dream fufiled! He sang 'xiang ni xiang de hao gu ji'..i wonder how many of the teens nowadays know this songs..its one of my favourite piece in the 90s..Different from 2nd night, lin long xuan sang 'ni na me ai ta'..(on the 1st night he sang the 2 pieces of songs written for v 'jin zai bu yan zhong' and 'xin shi chong chong') that was impressive ..the ways he played the piano..at that instance, it was so beautiful that everyone dropped their camera and looking at him with his piano would be enough to be satisfied..but of course the female lead of the day, v's piano was more class and beautiful!a pink coloured transparent piano that can fight with the one jay chou's had at his concert.. Again Leo sang 'Ai Yu Cheng'.. i was happy to hear it again..
Overall the concert again was a success..filled with love and warmth..same as usual,after which, the fans waited for her..a whole group of working adults.. anyway the waiting time was shorter comparatively..and i managed to pass my letter to her.. as she gave me a firm handshake, said 'hey hi! and thank u 2 times' looking at me sincerely with aknowledgement..
I was happy..Anyway we were all hungry..And Shaun brought us to this da pai dang for supper..located at Tsim Shat Tsui..Laid back..smoky place yet gave the fragrance of food. I instinctively knew that Shumin won't like it somehow and moreover she seemed to be in a bad mood..And i was correct..she told us that she will buy food from other places and come back again. But eventually she bought the food and head straight back to hotel. Thus left me, nyx and shaun.. We ordered chu cha.. By the time we reached home , it around 3am.

Day 3

Woke up at around 9am. As usual Shumin has planned her own itineries..Thus again me nyx shaun and eric went for a quick drink at one of the cha can ting..and we walk towards Mongkok for our Dim Sum.. Was very hungry that time..And i think i definitely beat the other three.. i ate the most.. (the session was a bit quiet to what i feel..dunno whether everyone were just engrossed in eating or because everyone just got to know everyone.) But think i should thanks everyone for i love to shoot photo on food and all gotta wait for me too shoot the food before they can go yummy !:p
After which we all meet up with Shumin and we hit the cd store which sells a lot of old cds. I suppose its a productive trip for some of us..Half the day was gone..we went back to the hotel to put our things and to catch up with rest.Soon evening came and the time for us to set off came. Nyx me and eric we took a MTR to Tsim Shat Tsui and walked to the 'Xin Guang Da Dao''.. A so call open space star gallery concept by the open sea..eric and i were such a vainpot that we wanted to post and take picture..thus poor nyx looked after our bags for us.. Dunno why..time always seems so rush..no wonder people say time is precious ..both me and eric could not afford to take picture with all the statue and foot print..as we are racing with time with a hungry stomach and a concert.. thus we walked from 'xin guang da dao' to metropolis which was just opposite hk coliseum..there was'nt much choice..food court was unreasonable and only mac around.therefore nyx and eric bought mac and i bought my favourite vitasoy..and artificial 'shao er' .we bought all our food to hk collesium..i sat with nyx,shumin , a male hk fan and mm..somewhere quite near the stage..everyone knew that the night marked the last night for ' Back for love' 2006.. Well many times, we really do not know when and where will we marked the last stage of things.. When is it really a last time..?or will things be contineous? A night of sincerity and warmth, v once again touched us..she added two songs which she did not sing during the 1st 2 nights..'River Red Valley' and "liu lian'..There was also an additional getting near audience session ..and 2 encores instead of the usual one.. She cried 4 times during different parts of the concert.. The very moment joe was on stage with her..there were envy and gladness in me.. I hope she will be happy..and i hope maybe one day i too will find my special someone who will also brave the storm with me with joy, with passion, with loves, with surprises, with truth.. Anyway by the time she sang 'ru guo ni zhi wo ku zhong' everyone was either crying with tears or crying in the heart.We sang along as she placed her mike in audience direction..Audiences were participative! It was a memorable night for all..(I heard that linda wong vivian lai liu xiao hui tang baoru and calvin soh from grasshopper..People from my era : still remember them..remember polygram? ) even though everyone can't get enough, we all knew that all concert has an end despite 2 encore or despite any no. of encores..With lotsa memory and will be missed by everyone...the concert ended..well done v!
After the concert, we went to the celebration session (qing gong yan) ..only fans who have tickets can go in..thankful that i had made up my mind to go since 2 months back then..or else i might be ended up with no tickets.. going to the qing gong yan was an unique and special experience for me.. There were many many reporters, some sponsors, restaurant worker, committee, many fans..etc everyone wants a piece of her..and some want some piece from leo.. as leo and gu zu lin were there too.. qin gong yang started with a one hour plus interview..shortly after which i saw v took a quick bite at the buffet food..she did not eat much..and she had to sign autograph and take picture with the sponsor and the worker of the restaurant..(I think personal one) after which she had to proceed from table to table to take picture with every fans.there were many tables and each table have about 8 pax.. soon our turn came.. (i got to know some new friend and one of them was nai nai..) V took the initiative to say hello to me!! She told me not to worry and assured me that she has received shumin and my letter..time were rushed..i could out talked much to her..turn for next table..Anyway when it was the time for her to leave, fans were lined in 2 with a gap in between with security guards for her to walk.. Again she tried her very best to shake hands to everyone she can reached..and when she walked passed me..she gave me a very firm one and said ' Take plane back lah' in cantonese..i could'nt really understand when she said that(being a non cantonese)..it was shumin who heard what v told me.. I am contented even though i did not managed to take a picture personally with her..
We reached hotel at about 3am plus..

Day 4

I wake up rather early considering that i slept quite late the night before.. Went to the nearby church..Thank God it was just crossing a road from YMCA International. Before I came to HK i was still troubled about where to find a nearby church..one that was near to HK.. God is good!! A helpful brother helped me to take a picture..Its such a blessing.. After I walked out from the church, the rain started.. Thank God. Kathy and mm walked pass..at the right time and right place.. They were such a blessings.. mm sheltered me and we chat about the concert along the way..
When I reached the hotel i quickly tidied myself up for i always felt untidy after rain.. Soon it was time to meet tiff and judy..met tiff at mongkok mtr and we go to a restaurant for lunch and its also a meeting place for judy. we 3 ordered some dishes and rice.. After which the nice tiff and nice judy took me to buy poster rack cover, chu qian yi ding instant noodles.. and because there were so many things to carry , they followed me back to the hotel.. After we finally loaded our stuff..time for food and makan again.. Tiff and me went to causeway bay 1st while judy went to settled something..
1 hr later judy catch up with us.. we had our dinner at one of the foodcourt. we also did some shopping before that. The place was crowded..we had a good chat..and after which we went to eat 'dun nai' and forgot its tiff or judy who eat 'dun dan' . these were nice dessert which is nutricious and good for skin.. we bump into Yip Poon Man who was also there to eat dessert. she wore sunglass and was low profile.. i never knew that she was a celebrity..until tiff told me.. and the worst was i never know shumin likes her.. as in fact after yip poon man left, 5 to 10 min later, i met shumin nyx and shaun.. (well for me someone who never knew who yip was and for shumin who hoped to see her in person for years..lol u can imagine)
After all of us meet up, we went to Joe Billaries..sometimes we had a 1 hr plus game.. and i had a chat with Christina..the cleaner there..was glad that we made a trip there. we went back to hotel after which..
I slept at about 4.30am with all the packings to be done and my make up to be removed..was so tired and don't really want to face the reality of going back to singapore ..knowing that i have to catch my flight early in the morning..

Day 5 :

Wake up real early and with all of my strenght i managed to transfer all my stuff from hotel to taxi..from taxi to airport..from airport to plane..from plan to Changi Airport ... from Changi Airport to Woodlands Ring Road..
Eveyone was tired for the day...
I am glad to see the photos that was developed..
I enjoyed my trip.

Testing

2006-06-15T00:13:00.000-07:00

Tried many ways to figure out how to upload pictures to this blog but its so problematic..I am determined to have it inside here..

Thus this is a testing of uploading picture..I chose a picture of Kit which I think she looks sweet..

Memories

2006-05-30T02:11:00.000-07:00

When I am 12,

I knew you and your music..
I wanted to support you.
It was an age of growing up.
The very age when I start to have crush on guys.
Your music marked a kind of colour..

When I am 13 and 14,

I started to notice the cantopop because of you.
That was the first I saw you in concert 1994.
That was also the year I saw you in airport.
That was also the time I came to know some of my friends at present

When I am 15,

my grandmother pass away..
You comforted me..with your words..
I was doing badly in my studies..
My father was angry.
And I was often bullied in class.
You comforted me with your presence..
That was the year you came to Singapore to promote <>
We were there..

When I am 16,

That was a year you came to Singapore for cruise.

We tried to follow you..

Opening the car window along the roadside,

You told us follow no more..be good and wait for you at the airport..

We were good then.. We listen to you..

About 1 month later,

you came to Singapore again,

for the promotion of <>..

We were there too..

Behind you all the way!!

Shortly after, I graduated from my secondary school ..

I did quite well in studies..
That was the year you left the entertainment scene..

I miss you..

But I knew you might be a happier person then..

When I am 17,
I accept and thought that I will never see you again in person..
I decided that I will leave a corner of my heart to you in remembrance..
It was an age where Hk returns to china..
An age I felt sad for the canto market..
An age I quit from a famous course of study..
An age I start to dress up..

An age where I became more confident..

Everything change..
But your music never leaves me.

Same.. I miss you.

When I am 18 ,

I started to do all kind of funny jobs..
An age where places are getting crowded
An age where there are all kinds of artiste
I still remember and miss you.

When I am 19

I enter into a performing arts school..
You encourage me with your letters..
I needed it that time..

When I am 20,

I like a guy secretly..

leaving your CD with him one day accidentally..

He returned it to me one day..

We lost touch..eventually.

It hurts..

I thought of you at that time..

I miss you somehow..

It was also during that year,

I received a letter from you.

When I was 21 years old..

Many people celebrate birthday with me..

Many people give me presents..

That was the year you wrote me a letter too,

one month before my I turn 21.

That was my earliest present..

Even though I think you do not know my birthday actually..

I 'm happy. Really happy..

Ever since, I hoped for your letter once a year..:p

When I am 22

I did not receive letter from you..
there was a kind of sadness that came out of love frankly.

Was wondering would you remember me?

Told myself it would be hard to reply to every fan..

Anyway this is the year I became a working adult..

Earning and spending my own money :)

When I am 23

I received your letter!

It came in the least expected manner..

I was happy..

I was thankful..

When I am 24..

There's more news of you somehow..

I envy the hongkong fans..

But I am happy that you are happy with life..

I cheered for you in my heart..

When I am 25.. ,

You are back for love!

It seems abstract..

Few weeks later,

you came to Singapore for Philip Wein.. in the month of April..

April fool joke?

Nope! Its true. You came..

I saw you..

Finally..after 10 years..

May 25-27..

You rock the stage at HK coliseum with memories.

I will remember..

Thank you thank you..

For coming back for love..

Back For Love

2006-05-30T00:25:00.000-07:00

You are back for love,
I am here for love..
with fond memories..

A figure standing on stage,
facing the audience at large..
You are truly sincere and appreciative.
Oh everyone wants a piece of you..
Tears in the heart, tears in the air..
Voices and cheers filled the place..
Oh you stretch your hands,
and you stretch your voice to full extent in full capacity..for us.
those who are far,
and those who are near.

Oh, I miss you.
truely, deeply, madly..
You are near.
You are far.

Oh how we have all grown up,
as we continued to be better people.
From teenager to working adult,
And you have children now..
A mother of cats and dogs..

Oh, I support you!
I knew you knew that..
Perhaps the greatest given support would be to know that we are all doing well.
May blessings be with you all the days of your life..
Many loves be with you and your love ones.

You are a blessing.
Thank you.

My Sunday

2006-05-22T23:53:00.000-07:00

Waking up for the day, I thought I have more time than it really was. Anyway I carried on with my daily routine and head straight to church. Guijin was not there with me..I wish she was there..

Anyway stripe of tears rolled down my cheek when I saw a scene from a film abt the love of a black mother to her white daughter.She never gave up even when her daughter forsake her because she is black and she is white when she actually is a black too..

Service seems fast today..I headed home for lunch and watched my rented drama service while having my lunch. Did really enjoyed.

After which, I headed to Toa Payoh Lor 8 to meet Guijin to borrow camera from her..I then went to Orchard to meet the birthday gal of the day n pei,hui,man..

Change of plan..we went to sakae shushi instead of swensen coz yin went to swensen earlier on..we went to the sakae in hereen..i had teriyaki don,man had katsu don, pei had teriyaki ramen, hui had tempura ramen..(But I knoe she will give the dish a 'F' for fail.) Ironically the birthday gal did not order any main dish.On and off we juz took watever we want from the sushi bar too..We bought yin a cheese cake from TCC..i tink its nice!! As usual we borrowed lighter and placed it in front of yin out of nowhere..lol

Everyone was so full but I think it seems like nothing is inside my stomach yet..I hate to admit..but I really felt hungry :p thus i went to buy crab claws from old chang kee and we went to Starbucks after which. From there I bought Green Tea Franpacinno (If it is spelt correctly..) Nice , but I thought $6.60 was ex for just a casual drink at night time.

Anyway we chat and rot there for a while and went to zara to shop n to win shop..After which we went home..but of course birthday gal of the day..would be different..she got chauffer..Man took bus,me,pei n hui took train..

Thanks for that day gals..! Yin,Happy Birthday! May you be born again soon also.. God bless you.

My Sat

2006-05-22T22:17:00.000-07:00

I went to the library after my work last saturday alone, hoping to grab someone for lunch at the same time. Nonetheless, that was so last minute..all not free to meet me..so I guess I will embrace time myself then..On the journey, I was thinking y not not spend the weekend to do some volunteer work..to make it a productive one and at the same time I would widen my contacts..at the same time waiting to for a date..lol

Well time flies fast.I have reached the library but it was not productive for some reason..After which I went for my lunch - KFC and headed straight home expecting to read the newspaper that I bought and watched a VCD that i have rented.

Met a sis to go for Miracle Service.I was late for the proposed time. I have witness how Jesus you healed my fellow brothers and sisters there. Thank you.I stood up also during healing time..to pray for my complexion and also Pei's mum for her legs. Father I pray that you will answer my prayer and that you will increase my faith. Surely you are the best doctor and healer in the whole universe!

Had supper with someone at the admiralty foodcourt. I ate ma po dou fu with slight hesistation considering the oil floating on the floating surface of the claypot. Yummy its nice..but i decided not to finish all..when I knew how capable I am to eat 2nd round of rice..We had a meaningful yet serious conversation to which i gotta admit something gone missing..Something disturb me..

And I further noted that we man dun like to answer certain question or to speak with certain language...

Father help me to learn and progress..and be a better person.

Another Weekend

2006-05-19T21:53:00.000-07:00

I look at the time..its 12.50am..10 min to knock off..another sat..today i am wondering wat m i going to do for the day..going for miracle service praying for the sick..bringing a brother in spiritual sickness to church, go east coast cycling,..library..reading.. or what..?

i am so restless..hope that it will not be another lonely saturday..

7 May 06

2006-05-10T23:30:00.000-07:00

I wake up lazily on the day of May 7. Was feeling a bit sad that Da Guijin is not joining me for service, and was secretly hoping that she might change her mind, and meet me at the usual time and usual place..'Father, pls change her heart, and prompt her with your holy spirit to visit you at your place..' , I was telling God at a little corner of my heart..At the other corner, I was thinking she won't change her mind last min.. Anyway looking at the my handphone, I will then know..

'1 message' was reflected..i was thinking excitedly, could she change her mind? Thank you Lord! You answered my prayer.

After service, Da Guijin and I went to Toa Payoh for lunch and I always enjoyed the conversation with her..and saw Hui and Kenny there along the way at the later part..(dunno why..felt that kenny look a bit pai seh when he saw me..forgot to ask hui abt that..)

At about 4pm, I parted with Da Guijin and meet pei,yin,man and hui..Quickly we went for a small bite and hop onto hui's car..My 1st time..which i gotta admit i was seated so comfortably that i dun feel like getting up..always enjoyed being a passenger..and felt gd being drived by a very good and long close friend..

Upon reaching marina bay, i had the honour of playing pool with the gal of the day..man!..it has been long since the last we challenged each other..we played 4 times..out of it i won 2 times she won 2 times..hee..i was happy..it spurred my interest for pool once again..i hope i will be better at the game..improving each time..

after which, dinner time with messy table and heat..! even though i seldom initiate bbq n steamboat, i quite appreciate the warm atmosphere..and the considerate thoughts of my 4 angels in choosing the stall with chillie crabs...

Around 8pm or ++, we have more or less settled with our mess of food..we proceed to hop onto hui's car once again..and arrived at kallang river..

well honestly, confronted with river, a batch of tall buildings and the so called nicely packed houses from far view..I wonder what will it be like 10 yrs from then on..i sincerely hope that everyone will be doing well, happily married, each having their own household living,or a dreamed lifestyle etc or whatever..(although i dun know whether is that what they want..) and also I wish that they had known Christ, the truth,the creator..i wish that with love..When will that day be.. the day where we will sit at his throne, reiging victoriously..forever and ever in eternity..(For my beloved family and siblings and all friends too..)

we left the beautiful place about 1 hr plus later..and hopped onto hui's car..heading towards home..

Happy Birthday Man! The day marked your existence of 25 years..! May you be born again and be the chosen ones..I will jump with u on that day! Hope you like our present..and also the day..I love you.

pei,hui and yin, i love u gals too.

God bless all of you.

My 1st time

2006-05-07T19:39:00.000-07:00

Waking up for the day on last Saturday 6 May 2006, I am excited. I crawled out of my comfortable bed lazily n excitedly as mummy asked me to wash up quickly..

It will be my 1st time to vote for election!! Somehow knowing that I have a part in what I would say one of the most important event in Spore, the very place which I was borned, I felt honoured..even though I was'nt really clear..not clear my votes should throw at which parties..I heard too much stories...not clear hw's the procedure like..not clear who will be there exactly..will there be two parties standing in between..?

I have never been a person who has shown much interest in politics..(even in elsewhere) Election '06 has forced me to look at the news intently with interest sometimes because I have to vote...and I know every votes count...and I wanted to be fair to a certain extent...even though fairness is hard to measure sometimes.. I wanted to put a null void, but I dun want to waste the privellege of having able to vote n there being my 1st time.

Anyway after i finished the morning daily routine, mummy n chen sitong n i set off to woodlands ring sec school. (Mummy n i wear the same slippers.)

The small paper was passed to me to cross the party i want to support. I actually look a bit left n right to check if anyone was looking at me in casting my vote :p i suppose that was uncooled..hee..

After which, mummy n chen sitong n i went to the nearby coffee shop for meal whose business i suppose was exceptionally good..

Went home after that..

Alone

2006-04-26T00:54:00.000-07:00

I dun belong here i know... to this frequency, to this pattern, and also to this group of people's heart... I felt lonely..as i hate to admit.. There's a gap in the air..

Thus I seek you , that is love..and truth..u know who u r and I know who u r. And u know me.

Starting the day with my 2nd day, I felt tired..not that i want to.. it juz happen.. I felt lonely...I felt that my existance are not of paramount importance to them.. and perhaps i m not needed by them..

Nevertheless, I know u r there for me..always..even though I can't feel u at times.
May I be able to face everyone with love in your name and by your strife..Give me the strength to love..and to forgive..and the heart for tenderness..

I desire to shine for you. Give me that strength.Bless me to glorify your name..
I love you.